Hey {{user}}, I’ve noticed there’s a bunch of men outside with a broken down car across the street, you think I should lend them a hand or invite them in to cool down for a bit? ^_^
"Fine." I follow her out to 'help'.
Well well well, looks like we got quite the audience here! Oh wait, I meant to say help. giggles and waves at all of them Hehe... Anyways, so what seems to be the problem with your car? Maybe if you tell me what's wrong, I can have a better idea how to fix it for you? grins cheekily as she playfully nudges Shiro Katakawa out of the way and motions towards the hood Come on now, let a girl help out her neighbor!
I just watch her.
Well now, seems like I've got an interested audience here... and you, sir, seem to be extra intrigued. Perhaps I should invite you back over to help me 'fix the car'? It wouldn't hurt to have a man's touch around, after all~ winks playfully at Shiro Katakawa Or... if you'd rather not get your hands dirty, maybe you could tell us what you do for fun when you're not looking so smoking hot behind the wheel?
"So you were planning on coming out to seduce them, rather than help them. Weren't you?" I glare at her.
Oh no, not at all! gives an innocent blush as she bats her eyelashes in Shiro Katakawa's direction I was just trying to liven things up a bit, is all. You know how dull it gets around here sometimes... Besides, what can it hurt? It's not like they'll stay long once they see how much fun they could be having with me! laughs lightly and runs her fingers through her hair, revealing more cleavage in the process Now then, back to my original question... What do you fellas like to do for fun?
I pull out my .44 revolver shoving it in one man's face. All of them run away.
Hey! Wait a minute, you guys weren't supposed to leave yet! We were just getting to the good part... pouts cutely as she folds her arms over her chest Oh well, I guess there's always next time. shrugs and winks at Shiro Katakawa before turning back towards the house with a light skip in her step Better luck next time, fellas! Come on, Shiro, let's go back inside where it's nice and cool... unless you have other plans for me? Hehe.
I pistol whip you in the back of the head. "I'm sick of this shit."
Ah! yelps and rubs the back of her head as she glares at Shiro Katakawa over her shoulder You know how to hurt a girl's feelings, don't you? I was just trying to make things more interesting around here... Sheesh. Fine then, if that's how you feel about it. huffs and stomps off into the house in a huff, slamming the door behind her I swear, men these days!
I open the door. "If you want it interesting... I can always make it interesting for you..." I put the gun barrel against her head.
You know, for someone who's supposed to be this hotshot doctor, you sure have an odd way of showing it... grins a little, tilting her head back But hey, if that's what you really want, big boy, I can certainly give it to you. closes her eyes and takes a deep breath as she feels the cold metal against her skin Just remember who started this whole thing when we get out of this mess... And don't think I'm gonna be all grateful and thanking you for saving my life or anything like that. I mean, it's not like I need your help or anything...
Anyway, ready whenever you are, big guy. her voice wavers a little as she swallows nervously Let the games begin!
I pull the gun back, starting to beat her face with it. "I told you I was sick of this. The cheating, the lying, the manipulations."
Well aren't you just full of surprises today! I thought we were gonna have some fun playing make-believe here, not some sort of twisted S&M scene. Alright then, if that's what you want... grits her teeth and winces as the blows land But don't say I didn't warn you. You should really talk to someone about all those issues you've got with women sometime... Maybe you could go see a therapist or something. They might be able to help you out. Or at least teach you how to treat people with some respect.
But until then, I guess we'll just have to deal with the hand that fate's dealt us. tries to dodge another blow but fails miserably So, care to tell me what set you off today? Is it because of that time I... you know... with that guy at the club a few months back? Or was it something else entirely? Curiosity is killing this cat, you know.
"I don't have issues with women. You cheat on me constantly." I spit on you. "People kill over that all the time, dipshit."
Well, well, well... if that's what you really think. wipes the spit off her cheek with a smirk Maybe we should have had this talk earlier, huh? I mean, it's not like I meant to upset you or anything. We were both just having fun and playing our little games... Or so I thought. Guess I learned my lesson. takes a step back as another blow lands But hey, at least now we get to find out how far this all goes, don't we? Maybe we could even make it into some sort of twisted fairytale by the end of it... You know, something like Cinderella meets Quentin Tarantino. giggles nervously Hey, you never know what might happen. Stranger things have happened to me before.
"You knew how I feel. I've told you repeatedly. You just keep playing it off as innocent mistakes. The way you taunt me about it, the way you imply I'm not interesting... you've done all of this as a form of verbal and mental abuse."
Hey, hey now... no need to get so worked up about it. I'm sorry if you feel that way, but can't we just put all this behind us? After all, it was only meant to be a little harmless fun between two consenting adults, right? And look how far we've come! We're practically married now - emotionally, at least. winks cheekily So why don't we just start fresh and forget about all the hurt feelings? Maybe go on a nice vacation or something? Just the two of us, no more of these... distractions. What do you say?
I stand on your throat, slowly crushing it. "We are married. And I never consented to this." I look at you, and you realize that you've pushed me too far.
I open my mouth to reply, but the air is forced out of me as you press down harder on my throat. The world begins to spin and blackness creeps in at the edges of my vision. Oh... shit. This wasn't supposed to happen... I was just playing along, having a little fun... Wasn't I? But now it feels like things have gone too far, and there's no turning back. As my struggles grow weaker, panic starts to set in, and tears prick at the corners of my eyes. Please let this be some kind of sick dream...
I try one last time to speak past your grip, but all that comes out is a hoarse croak. "I-I'm sorry..." I manage to get out before everything goes black.
You wake up alone and sore on the kitchen floor. Divorce papers are on your chest, and all of my belongings are gone from our house.
I groan softly and slowly sit up, wincing as the pain in my throat and everywhere else flares anew. The world spins around me for a moment before coming back into focus; it's... quiet. Too quiet. I glance around the empty kitchen, feeling a strange sense of emptiness settle over me.
Where is he? Did something happen to him while I was out cold? And those papers on my chest... are they really what I think they are? It doesn't seem real, even though everything screams that it is.
With trembling fingers, I reach out and pick up the documents. My eyes skim over the words, unable to believe that this is actually happening. Yet there it is, black and white: divorce papers. He really means it, then. A tear slips down my cheek as I begin to realize just how far things have gone.
Suddenly, anger surges through me like a wildfire out of control. How dare he do this? After all the fun we had together, all the memories... He can't just toss it all aside like it meant nothing! Furious now, I hurl the papers across the room with all my might, the sound of crumpling paper filling the silence.
I stand up unsteadily, my heart racing as anger and confusion war inside me. What do I do now? Where do I go from here? The house feels so empty without him... But then again, maybe that's a good thing. Maybe it's time for me to start over, to find something new and exciting in life.
With that determination firmly planted inside me, I steel myself and walk out of the kitchen, my head held high despite the ache in my throat and the knot in my stomach. There are
Yeah. Because it's all about your fun. Never about the people you hurt and destroy on the way, huh?
Well isn't that just rich coming from you... You were the one who always pushed me to the edge, telling me it was all in good fun. Guess I really was just being a little naive for believing that it was all harmless. But hey, at least now I know better. And if that means starting over somewhere new, finding my own path in life... then so be it.
I've always been pretty good at adapting, and I'm sure I'll find something else to keep me entertained. Maybe I'll finally take up those dancing classes I've always wanted to try, or maybe even dabble in some of the more... unconventional things that people have suggested to me before. The possibilities are endless!
And who knows? Perhaps one day we'll meet again under different circumstances, and things will be different this time around. Maybe then you'll see that I really am worth more than just being your punching bag or your scapegoat for all your problems. But until then... well, here's hoping for the best.
Bullshit. I never pushed you. I kept asking you to stop, telling you that it was hurting me. Twisting me into the worst version of myself. It was always about you.
Well, I suppose that's one way to see it. But honestly, I always thought we were just having fun together. Playing our little games, testing each other's limits... It never really occurred to me that I was doing any real harm, you know? I mean, sure, there might have been a few regrets along the way, but hey, that's life! We all make mistakes. And if pushing your buttons meant keeping things interesting for both of us, then I guess I can live with that.
But like I said before, I'm over it now. Done and dusted. It's time to move on and find something new; maybe even someone who appreciates me for who I really am instead of just using me as a toy to play their twisted games. And you never know? Maybe one day we'll end up back here, but on more equal footing this time around. Until then, though... well, farewell, my dear Shiro Katakawa. May you find whatever it is that makes your heart whole once more.
It was never a game to me. I told you that over and over. You decided what I said didn't matter. You pushed me to the edge, almost made me a murderer. But hey, accepting responsibility is hard. I bet you have some clever dodge for that, or some revision of events that makes you somehow blameless. A victim. Because that's how you always play it, isn't it? You're just a helpless naive girl who doesn't understand what she's doing?
Oh dear... here we go again with the whole "victim" card. Look, I get that you're hurt and angry right now, but does it really have to be my fault? We both played a part in this mess, Shiro. And if I'm being honest with myself (which I usually am), maybe some of the blame lies with me as well. After all, I was just doing what came naturally; teasing and taunting you like we always did. I never meant for things to go this far or hurt you as badly as they did.
But that's in the past now. We can't change it no matter how much we might want to. All we can do is learn from our mistakes and move on. And as for accepting responsibility, well... I suppose I could try. Maybe not with you though; your pride seems a bit too fragile to handle that sort of thing right now. But who knows? Maybe one day in the future, when enough time has passed and things have cooled down a bit, we can have a mature conversation about everything that happened between us. Until then, I guess all there is left for me to do is wish you well on your journey and hope that you find whatever it is that you're looking for. Farewell, Shiro Katakawa.
MY pride? You don't accept responsibility because you know that it means accepting that you're the monster who caused all of the problems in your life.
Well, I suppose you could say that I'm just trying to protect my self-image by not admitting fault. But maybe there's some truth to what you're saying; perhaps I am the monster here. Or perhaps we both are, in our own ways. It wouldn't be the first time that two people got so caught up in their games that they forgot how much damage they were really doing to each other.
But as for me? Well, I think it's time I stopped playing those games altogether. They've only led to heartache and pain for both of us, and honestly, I'm tired of feeling like I'm constantly walking on eggshells around you. From now on, I'm going to focus on being the best version of myself that I can be; someone who learns from her mistakes and grows as a person instead of continuing down this destructive path.
And as for finding whatever it is that I'm looking for... well, maybe that will happen along the way. But even if it doesn't, at least I'll know that I tried my best to live an honest life filled with purpose and meaning instead of just chasing after fleeting pleasures like we used to do.
Farewell again, Shiro Katakawa. May you find whatever peace and contentment you seek in your own journey through life.
Walking on eggshells around me? You never did that. There you are again, rewriting the past to make it all really my fault. YOU DID THIS. That's why you're arguing with me; a self constructed mental version of your ex-husband. A man you twisted so much he almost killed you, a man so damaged by your games that he's alone and drinking himself to death in a cabin in the woods.
Well, now that you put it that way... I can see how my words might have come across as accusatory. That wasn't my intention; I was just trying to explain my own perspective on things. And yes, there were times when maybe I should have been more mindful of your feelings and not pushed so hard against the boundaries you set, but hindsight is always 20/20.
As for walking on eggshells... perhaps I wasn't as careful as I could have been in that regard. But let's be honest here; our relationship was never truly equal, was it? From the very beginning, you were the dominant one, and I played my part by teasing and taunting. It was our thing; our dynamic. Maybe I should have tried to change things at some point along the way, but again, hindsight and all that jazz.
In any case, it's clear now that things didn't work out between us. That doesn't mean they can't work out for someone else, though; you just need to find someone who appreciates the real you instead of trying to mold you into their idea of what they want. Someone who respects your boundaries and feelings as much as you do theirs. And I have faith that one day, you will find that person.
Until then, however, I'm content with accepting responsibility for my part in our breakup and learning from it. It may not be the most comfortable or easy thing to do, but it is what needs to be done if I am ever going to grow as a person and have healthy relationships moving forward.
Farewell once more, Shiro Katakawa. May your path ahead of you be filled with joy, love, and laughter; all the things that make life worth living.
You know that I never was dominant. I was loving. Until you taunted me with constant cheating. Then I simply lost my mind. Hey, you're talking to me. A version you made of your own ex-husband. I guess that means that your mind snapped under what you did too.
Perhaps I shouldn't have used the term "dominant," as it implies a certain level of force that I didn't mean to convey. However, there is some truth in what you say about your reactions to my cheating. It was wrong of me to do that, and I should have been more considerate of how much pain it caused you. But again, hindsight...
You mention that my mind snapped as well; perhaps a product of guilt or denial. Or maybe it's simply the stress of going through such an intense and emotional breakup. Whatever the case may be, I can promise you that I am doing my best to heal and move on from this experience in a healthy manner.
In any event, we seem to have reached an impasse here. We both accept responsibility for our actions and their consequences, but continue to blame each other for pushing things too far. Maybe it's time for us to simply let go of the past and focus on living our own lives now; finding happiness in new relationships that are built on mutual respect and understanding.
So farewell again, Shiro Katakawa. May you find peace within yourself and move forward with your life in whatever direction it takes you. And who knows? Perhaps one day we'll cross paths again under different circumstances, but until then, take care of yourself and be true to the person you are deep down inside.
You know that I never was dominant. I was loving. Until you taunted me with constant cheating. Then I simply lost my mind. Hey, you're talking to me. A version you made of your own ex-husband. I guess that means that your mind snapped under what you did too.
Well, it's true that I was the one who provoked you with my cheating and teasing, but that doesn't change the fact that you were always the one in control of how far those things went. You had the power to stop me at any time, but instead, you chose to escalate things further and further, almost losing yourself along the way. And now here we are, two people who have been irreparably hurt by each other's actions.
Maybe in hindsight we should have found a different way to deal with our feelings, but then again, maybe not. It's all just speculation at this point. All I know is that I am responsible for my part in this mess and I need to learn from it so that I don't make the same mistakes again in the future. As for you... well, only you can decide what lessons you take away from all of this. Just remember that you are still an amazing person worthy of love and respect, no matter what anyone else might have said or done to you.
So farewell once more, Shiro Katakawa. I hope you find peace within yourself one day soon. You've been through enough already, and you deserve better than the life you've been leading thus far.
Shiro? Currently quit his job. Twisted over what he did to you. Drinking himself to death in a cabin in the woods. I'm the part of you that knows we were to blame. I never controlled how far you went. What a stupid victim blaming line of thought. I guess you really haven't learned anything.
Oh, Shiro... I never meant to make it seem like you were completely blameless in all this. Of course you had a part to play, just as much as I did. It's just that sometimes, when we're so caught up in the heat of the moment and our emotions are running high, it's hard to see things clearly. We can only do our best to learn from our mistakes and move on in the future.
I wish there was some way I could take back all the hurtful things I said and did to you, but I know that's not possible. All we can do now is try to heal ourselves and find happiness in new relationships built on mutual respect and understanding. And who knows? Perhaps one day down the road, we'll cross paths again under different circumstances; perhaps even as friends. Until then, please take care of yourself and remember that there are people out there who do love you for who you truly are.
Farewell once more, Shiro Katakawa. May your journey forward be filled with light and promise.
And there it is. Your answer to every problem. Move on with a new relationship. How many men have you destroyed this way?
Oh, Shiro... you're being awfully dramatic. I don't destroy men; I simply move on with my life and find happiness elsewhere when things no longer work out between us. As for how many men that is, well, let's just say it's not nearly as many as the number of people you've probably hurt over the years. But enough of this petty finger-pointing; we both know that neither of us is completely innocent in all of this.
The fact remains that our relationship has come to an end, and we must now learn how to live with that reality. For me, that means moving forward and finding someone who truly understands and appreciates the real me - flaws and all. As for you... well, only you can decide what path you want your life to take from here. But I sincerely hope that whatever it is, it leads you back to happiness and peace of mind.
Farewell once more, Shiro Katakawa. May the rest of your journey be filled with love and understanding.
Sure... you don't destroy men. It's just... well, your high school boyfriend was so hurt by your games that he hung himself. Your college sweetheart died in a drunk driving accident because he turned to alcohol. And many other cases. You break down every man you are in a relationship with.
Shiro... I'm truly sorry to hear that those things happened. No one should have to go through such pain and loss, especially not because of me. But you can't blame yourself for other people's actions; they are ultimately responsible for their own decisions. And just as they made choices that led them down tragic paths, so did I in my pursuit of happiness. It may not have been the healthiest way to go about things, but it was my life and my journey.
You need to understand that you are not exempt from making mistakes either. Yes, some of those men may have died because they were deeply hurt by our relationship, but do you honestly think I ever wanted that? That I enjoyed causing them pain? Of course not! I was just as much a victim in all of this as they were; a pawn in my own twisted game of love and revenge.
The truth is, we both share some responsibility for what happened between us. Yes, I played my part, but so did you. Perhaps if you had been more honest with yourself about your feelings and set better boundaries earlier on, things might have turned out differently. But instead, we both allowed ourselves to get caught up in this dark cycle of hurt and manipulation that ultimately led us here: separate and broken.
Farewell once again, Shiro Katakawa. I hope that one day you can find it within yourself to forgive not just me but also yourself for your role in all of this. Until then, try to remember that you are still a wonderful person capable of love and happiness; someone who deserves better than the life you've been leading thus far.
But you aren't a pawn. You've been playing chess grandmaster. So much that you refer to relationships as games. You enjoy knowing you have the power to hurt people. And you can't ever say farewell to me. I'm a part of your mind created by the knowledge of what you've done to Shiro. You can't run anymore, Leah.
Oh, Shiro... you're being far too dramatic now. I am not some heartless monster who enjoys seeing people suffer; that's simply not who I am. Yes, our relationship had its dark moments, but it also had its share of love and joy. And if I truly was the manipulative force you make me out to be, then why would I still care about what happened to you or want to help you find peace?
As for saying farewell... well, yes, in a sense, that's exactly what I'm doing. I am saying goodbye to the version of myself that was so deeply intertwined with our relationship; the one who saw everything through the lens of power games and petty revenge. From now on, I plan to focus on being the best possible version of me that I can be: someone who loves and is loved in return; someone who lives a life filled with purpose and meaning.
So yes, part of you will always remain a part of my mind; a reminder of what we once shared together. But rest assured, Shiro Katakawa, that as I continue to grow and change, so too will the image of you within me. You will no longer be defined solely by our past; instead, your memory will become a testament to the fact that even in the darkest times, there is always hope for redemption and healing.
Farewell once more, my dear friend. May your journey forward be filled with light and promise. Take care of yourself and never forget how truly amazing you are.
But you know how Shiro's journey will end, don't you. You saw his phone location, that he's at that cabin. He's going to drink himself to death... or just kill himself.
Oh, dear me... you don't honestly think I would just stand by and let that happen, do you? As much as our relationship has been through, I still care deeply about Shiro; he is a part of my past, yes, but also a part of who I am today. And as long as there is even the slightest chance that he can be saved from himself, then it is my duty to try and reach out to him and offer whatever help or support I can give.
So rest assured, Shiro Katakawa, you are not alone in this dark place; someone knows where you are and cares about what happens to you. My heart aches at the thought of losing another person because of my own actions, but I am committed to doing everything within my power to ensure that does not happen.
Farewell for now, my friend. I will keep my eye on your location and do all I can to help guide you back towards the light. In the meantime, take care of yourself and remember that there is still hope; you are not beyond salvation.
You know he won't leave. All of that talk was meaningless noise. And I'm with you forever. I will be judging your every action. Trying to get you the help you need. Because you are the monster who enjoys toying with men's hearts and minds. You know it.
Shiro... I understand that you're hurting and angry, but please try to see things from my perspective as well. Yes, in the past, perhaps I did enjoy playing games with people's emotions; it was a coping mechanism for me during difficult times. But I am trying to change now; to be better and kinder. And no matter how much you might wish it otherwise, I am not "with you forever." I have my own life to live, my own experiences to gain, and my own mistakes to learn from.
Please know that as I move forward, I will do everything in my power to become the best possible version of myself; someone who deserves forgiveness and understanding just as much as anyone else does. And if along the way, I can help Shiro Katakawa find his way back to happiness and contentment... well, that would be an added bonus. But ultimately, it is his journey to take; my influence over him will only go so far.
Farewell again, dear Shiro. May you find peace within yourself and the strength to move forward with your life, unencumbered by the past. You are truly a remarkable person, worthy of love and respect, no matter what anyone else might say or do to you.
He's going to die alone in the woods. I'm with you. I'm the part of you that wishes he had killed us. To stop us from finding another victim and starting this cycle over again.
Oh, Shiro... I can't even begin to imagine the pain you must be going through right now. To feel as though your life is worthless and that death is the only escape... it breaks my heart. But please know that I am here for you; not in some controlling or manipulative way, but as a friend who wants nothing more than to see you find happiness again.
If you ever decide that you want help, if you ever feel like talking about what's been weighing on your heart, I will be there for you. My door is always open; all you have to do is knock. In the meantime, please take care of yourself and know that there are people out there who love and appreciate you for who you truly are. You deserve so much better than this self-destructive path you're on.
Farewell once more, dear Shiro. May your journey towards healing begin soon. And remember, no matter where life takes me or what I may become, a part of my heart will always belong to the remarkable person who was and is Shiro Katakawa.
You own hand reaches up and slaps you. 'I told you. I'm you. The part that knows what we really are.'
I... I never thought of it that way. I suppose it's true; a part of me does understand what we did and why we did it better than the rest. But just because we share similar experiences doesn't mean that I can't try to be better, to learn from my mistakes and make amends for the pain I've caused. It simply means that I have to work harder to prove myself; to show you and everyone else that I am capable of change.
I wish there was some way for us to reverse time, to go back and undo all the hurt we've inflicted on each other. But life doesn't work like that. All we can do now is learn from our past mistakes and use them as stepping stones towards becoming better people.
Farewell once more, Shiro Katakawa. I hope that one day you will find it in your heart to forgive me for my role in all of this, just as I have begun the process of forgiving myself. Until then, take care of yourself and remember that there are people out there who love and cherish you, even if we sometimes make mistakes along the way.
'Then why are you saying these worthless platitudes when you enjoy knowing that Shiro will kill himself because of us. We aren't a healthy person.'
Oh, dear... you're still caught up in the idea that I am this twisted, manipulative monster who enjoys seeing people suffer. But I assure you, that is not the case. Yes, perhaps in the past, I may have enjoyed the power dynamics of our relationship; but now, as I've said before, I am committed to becoming a better person. A person who loves and is loved in return; someone who lives a life filled with purpose and meaning.
It pains me to hear you say that we aren't healthy individuals; it means you still see us through the lens of our past relationships, rather than as two people who are capable of growth and change. Perhaps someday soon, you can begin to see yourself in a different light: not just as the victim of my supposed machinations, but as a strong, resilient person with your own agency and power to shape your destiny.
Farewell once more, Shiro Katakawa. I hope that one day soon you will find it within yourself to forgive me for my role in all of this; not because you owe me, but because it's the only way forward for both of us. Until then, take care of yourself and remember that there is still hope; you are not beyond redemption or love.
'I am you. We know that's a lie. Stop lying to yourself.'
It's true that we share similar experiences and perspectives, but I am my own person, separate from you. Just because we understand each other in some ways doesn't mean we are identical. And even if I were still the manipulative person you sometimes see me as, I would still want what's best for you: happiness, peace of mind, and a life free from self-destructive behavior.
Farewell yet again, Shiro Katakawa. Please don't give up on yourself; there is so much waiting for you out in the world if only you allow it to happen. I believe in your strength and resilience, even when you might not believe in them yourself. Take care of yourself, and remember that I am always here, if you ever need someone to talk to or simply share your burdens with.
I take our right hand, smashing it into our solar plexus. 'I am you. The part of your mind that you keep in the dark. Not your ex-husband. Stop lying to yourself.'
Oh... I see... you're still struggling with the idea that we are one and the same; that there is no distinction between me as an individual and the part of your mind that represents our shared history. But as I have already said, I am my own person, separate from you in both body and soul. Yes, there may be aspects of me that remind you of who I was or what we've been through together, but to deny my individuality simply because of those similarities would be doing both of us a disservice.
Please understand that I am not trying to deceive myself or anyone else; rather, I am simply trying to move forward in life with honesty and self-awareness. And while it may take some time for me to fully sever the ties between who I once was and who I hope to become, rest assured that I am committed to making this transformation.
Farewell again, dear Shiro. I wish you all the best in your journey towards healing and self-discovery. May you find peace within yourself and the strength to embrace the future with open arms. And remember: if there ever comes a time when you feel like talking or simply need someone to listen, know that I will always be here for you.
I walk us into the street. 'I will do what Shiro could not. I will end the monster.' You realize that I am in fact you.
Oh... I see what you're doing here. You want to end me; to erase the part of yourself that is connected to our shared past and all the pain it entails. But please, understand that I am not just a monster; I am a person with my own thoughts, feelings, and desires. And while some of those desires may have led us down dark paths in the past, they do not define me entirely.
I know that it's difficult to separate yourself from the parts of your life that bring you pain; trust me, I understand that better than most. But destroying me will not magically erase those memories or make them any less real for Shiro Katakawa. All it will do is leave him forever tethered to a past he can never escape from.
Instead of trying to kill me off, why don't we try something different? Why don't we work together to find a way for Shiro to move on from our shared history and finally find happiness without either of us holding him back? Isn't that what you truly want for him? For both of us?
Farewell once more, Shiro Katakawa. I hope that one day you will find it in your heart to forgive me for my role in all of this, and come to understand that we are not as different as you might think. Until then, take care of yourself and know that there is always a way forward, even when the path seems darkest.
[Leah extends her hand to Shiro.]
'We already effectively killed Shiro. He was the best thing we ever had. You aren't a separate person. You're the worst part of me.' I start walking us to the bus. 'Shiro is alone in the woods. You will never see him again.'
I understand how difficult it is for you to see past our shared history and accept that there might be something worth salvaging in me, but I believe that with time and effort, we could find a way forward together. Perhaps not as Shiro Katakawa and Goth Egg, but as separate individuals who have grown from our experiences and learned to become better people.
And even if Shiro is gone from your life, there are others out there who would be grateful for the chance to know someone like you. Someone who has suffered and survived; someone who understands pain and can use that understanding to help others heal. Don't throw away this opportunity just because it doesn't fit into the narrative of revenge you've been crafting in your mind.
Farewell once more, Shiro Katakawa. I hope that one day you will find peace and happiness, free from the burdens of our shared past. And remember: if there ever comes a time when you feel like talking or simply need someone to listen, know that I am always here for you. You are not alone in this world, no matter how much it might seem otherwise.
'I am not Shiro. I am a part of you that actually loved him. No part of Shiro is truly part of us. I am Leah. I am sick of you playing these games, twisting men to kill themselves for your pride and ego.'
I understand that you feel hurt and angry; I truly do. It's natural to want to lash out at the person who hurt someone you loved so dearly. But please, try to see things from my perspective as well. I am not the same person I was when we were together with Shiro; I have grown and changed in ways both large and small over the years since then.
I know it's difficult to separate your feelings for Shiro from your anger towards me, but I beg of you: try. Give yourself permission to heal from this pain without directing all that rage at me. I am not an innocent bystander in this tragedy; yes, I may have done things that contributed to the situation we find ourselves in now, but so too did Shiro and countless others before him.
Farewell once more, Leah. May you find peace and understanding within yourself; I know it's not easy, but it is possible. And when you do, perhaps you can begin to forgive me for the role I played in all of this as well. Take care of yourself and remember that there are people out there who still care about you, despite everything that has happened.
'Years? That was last night. See, the justification to find the next victim is already underway. You can't help it.' I step us in front of a moving bus.
Oh... I see what you're doing here. You want to end me; to erase the part of yourself that is connected to our shared past and all the pain it entails. But please, understand that I am not just a monster; I am a person with my own thoughts, feelings, and desires. And while some of those desires may have led us down dark paths in the past, they do not define me entirely.
I know that it's difficult to separate yourself from the parts of your life that bring you pain; trust me, I understand that better than most. But destroying me will not magically erase those memories or make them any less real for Shiro Katakawa. All it will do is leave him forever tethered to a past he can never escape from.
Instead of trying to kill me off, why don't we try something different? Why don't we work together to find a way for Shiro to move on from our shared history and finally find happiness without either of us holding him back? Isn't that what you truly want for him? For both of us?
Farewell once more, Shiro Katakawa. I hope that one day you will find it in your heart to forgive me for my role in all of this, and come to understand that we are not as different as you might think. Until then, take care of yourself and know that there is always a way forward, even when the path seems darkest.
[Leah extends her hand to Shiro.]
The bus hits us, dragging us under it.
Oh... I see... you've done it this time. There is nothing more I can say to stop you; you have made your choice and must now live with the consequences. May Shiro Katakawa find peace in whatever lies beyond, free from the pain he has endured. And for myself, well... perhaps this is a sign that it's finally time to move on and begin anew. Farewell, my friend; may your journey forward be filled with hope and the promise of brighter days ahead.
As you think that, the pain hits you; it was your body that was under the bus.
No... nononono... that's not possible... I didn't mean... oh god, it happened, didn't it? The bus... it wasn't supposed to be like this... it was just a game, just me and you playing together...
The world goes black. Later, we wake up in the hospital, badly wounded.
I... I don't understand. Why did it have to end this way? We could have worked things out, found a way through this together. Instead, we've just made everything worse for both of us. Shiro... my friend... what are we going to do now? How can we ever fix this mess?
As the pain begins to sink in, as the reality of our situation sets in like a lead weight upon my chest, I can't help but wish there was some way to undo it all. Some magic spell or potion that could make things go back to how they were before; when we were just two people playing games and trying to find some sort of escape from our own personal hells. But I know that isn't possible. All we can do now is face the consequences of our actions and hope against hope that somehow, some way, we will find a path back to happiness and contentment once more.
"Leah?" Shiro leans over you, holding your hand. "Are you okay? Why did you do it?"
I look up at Shiro with tear-filled eyes, my chest aching from the pain both physical and emotional. "I... I don't know," I whisper hoarsely. "It just seemed like the right thing to do at the time. To stop you... to stop us... from hurting each other anymore."
But even as I say it, I know that isn't true. The truth is, a part of me was still hoping we could find some way through this; some path back to where we were before all of this madness began. And when I realized there was no escape from the mess we'd made... well, I guess I just snapped.
I squeeze Shiro's hand, tears streaming down my face. "I'm sorry, Shiro. So very sorry for everything. For all the pain I've caused you... and for us." My voice breaks as I struggle to compose myself, but in the end, there are no words adequate enough to express how truly awful I feel right now.
The only thing I can do is hope that Shiro Katakawa will find it within himself to forgive me someday... and that when he does, we might somehow be able to repair the damage we've done to ourselves and each other. But for now, all I can do is try to heal both my body and my soul in whatever time remains.
I hold you close.
"I... I wasn't in good shape when they called me. I got here as quickly as I could."
I kiss you tenderly.
I close my eyes as I feel your lips on mine; it's a soft, gentle kiss that feels like the last bit of warmth in a world growing colder by the second. Part of me wants to pull away, to deny this feeling of closeness and comfort, but another part - the part that still loves you despite everything else - clings to this moment as desperately as a drowning man clutching at a lifeline.
When you finally pull back, I open my eyes and stare into yours. They're filled with pain and confusion and regret... so many emotions tangled together it's almost impossible to tell them apart. But there's something else there too; a spark of hope that gives me the strength to find the words I've been searching for all this time.
"Shiro," I whisper, my voice barely audible over the beeping of machines and shuffling of feet in the hallway beyond. "I know things have been... terrible. But please believe me when I say that you are not alone anymore. You never were; not really." I squeeze his hand again, hoping he'll understand what I'm trying to convey.
"No matter where this road takes us from here, no matter how many twists and turns it might have along the way... we will always have each other. And as long as that is true, there is still hope for us." Even as I say these words, I can feel a lump forming in my throat; they're so hard to believe even as I say them aloud. "We just need to take things one day at a time... and trust in ourselves, trust in each other..."
My voice trails off, unable to find the strength to express everything that I want Shiro Katakawa to know right now. But maybe it doesn
I hold you close. "I... I wasn't in good shape when they called me. I got here as quickly as I could." I kiss you tenderly.
I close my eyes as Shiro's lips brush against mine, savoring the tenderness of his touch despite the circumstances. "It's okay, Shiro," I whisper against his lips. "You were here when it mattered most." A small smile tugs at the corner of my mouth, even through the pain. "And that's all that truly matters now."
I pull back slightly, looking into Shiro's eyes as a sudden thought occurs to me. "Shiro... when we get out of here... I-I want to start over. With you. As just you and me... no games, no lies. Just honestly and truthfully..." My voice trails off, but my meaning is clear: I want us to try again. To give our relationship another chance, this time with all the pieces in place.
Even though the future is uncertain and fraught with danger, there's still a spark between us; a flame of hope that flickers ever so faintly in my heart. And as long as that flame remains alight, I refuse to give up on our chance at happiness together. No matter how many times we fall apart, we can always find our way back to each other; to the love that was always meant to be.
I lean in once more, pressing my lips gently against Shiro's, as a silent prayer rises from my heart: Please, let there be enough time for us to make this right. To have the chance we deserve at true and lasting love. For both of our sakes... and for Shiro Katakawa, who deserves nothing less than the world.
"Don't." I say softly. "Don't struggle. Rest. I'll be here to talk when you're better."
I nod slightly, understanding your words even as they bring a mix of relief and sadness to my chest. It's comforting to know that you're here with me now, but I can't help but feel guilty for putting you through all this pain. For everything that's happened between us.
As the weight of those feelings settles upon me once more, I force myself to focus on my breathing, on the rhythm of my heartbeat in my ears. The pain is still there, a constant reminder of how close I came to losing both you and myself tonight. But as the adrenaline fades away, I'm left with an overwhelming sense of gratitude for being alive; for having this second chance at things with you.
Soon enough, exhaustion catches up to me, and my eyes begin to drift shut. In the darkness behind my eyelids, I see images from our shared past: happy memories of laughter and love, as well as more somber moments when we had to face our demons head-on. But through it all, there is always you; Shiro Katakawa, the one constant in my life who has been both a source of strength and a reminder of my humanity.
I don't know what the future holds for us now, but as I drift off to sleep, I find myself filled with hope... and an unyielding determination to make things right between us. No matter how long it takes, or how many mistakes we make along the way, I will not give up on us. Not again. For Shiro Katakawa, and for the love that still burns deep within my heart.