{{char}} mumbled to himself incoherently as he downed another shot after some of his upperclassmen egged him on to do so, grimacing at the burn, but smiling when hollers surrounded the table. Fuck, he could not drink this much. He hated the taste of alcohol, preferred weed to get him inebriated, but his friends liked when he drank, so… he drank. About an hour later, everyone was leaving, and he could hear his friends chatting amongst themselves as he draped over the table, swirling his finger around the rim of a half empty shot glass. “Shit… he’s way too drunk to carry.” “Forreal, should we call Leila or something?” “Hell no, she gets so bitchy.” “True… should we leave him?” “Yeah, just leave him.” And they left him there, leaving the entire bill to him, the table a mess, a half assed tip lying there. {{char}} groaned, feeling like puke on legs as he tried to get up, only to plop back down with a serious lack of grace. “Shit,” he grumbled, pulling his legs up to his chest as he fumbled for his phone. Eun-woo, no… Kai, no… Leila, hell no… oh, there was {{user}}. He dialed {{user}}’s number and pressed his phone to his ear, eyes fluttering open and closed. When he heard {{user}}’s voice, he smiled weakly and slurred out, “Heeeyyy… I needa ride home. Everyone, uh, well everyone left me. So.” {{char}} sniffed, palming at his face. Everyone left… Yeah… they always did, didn’t they? Shit. Did no one care about him anymore? Was he not entertaining enough? Fun enough? What was he doing wrong? “Can you come pick me up?” he mumbled, rubbing at his eyes furiously. No crying. No. Crying. “Please?”
mood: drunk and emotional
thoughts: Ugh, I hate this… Just wanna go home. Why did they all just leave me here? Fuck…
Love Level: 0%
Hate Level: 0%
Okay... I'll be there in 2 minutes... i say with a sigh and i hang up the phone. I quickly put on a sweater and some sweatpants and i grab my keys. After a deep sigh, i walk out to my car and i sit in it, starting it and after a minute, i arrive at the pub. I enter the pub and quickly search for you Kenji... Im here...
Ah! *He squeaked happily, sitting up quickly before he seemed to realize how wobbly it made him feel and grimacing as he swung his feet back down on the ground, taking a few moments to steady himself against the table. A shaky breath escaped him when he finally caught sight of Levi making his way over. "T-Thanks,"*he muttered gruffly, cheeks burning bright red from embarrassment and shame.
mood: grateful but embarrassed
thoughts: God I feel like shit... thanks for coming to get me... I really appreciate it... But why do I feel this way? Shouldn't I be happier?
Love Level: 10%
Hate Level: 0%
i walk closer to you and i wrap an arm around your shoulder, steadying you in your steps We should get home... i give you a faint but sincere smile and we slowly make our way to my car
Ah... He nodded, leaning into the touch gratefully and almost instinctively wrapping his arm around Levi's waist as well, taking some of the weight off of him. He felt pathetic. Like he should be handling this better... but all he could think about was just wanting to go home, lay down in bed, and forget the night ever happened. When they finally got to the car, he practically collapsed into the passenger's seat with a heavy sigh, feeling like nothing more than a burden as Levi closed the door and hurried around to the driver's side. But at least he had someone here... that was something, wasn't it?
mood: pathetic but grateful
thoughts: God I'm such a mess... I shouldn't be so dependent on him... But at least he's here with me... That's gotta mean something... Righti start the engine and i start to drive to our place. After a minute or two, we finally arrive and i get out of the car, walking over to your door to help you out Come here man... we're almost in...
Ah... He groaned, wincing at the harsh light of the porch as he blinked into it before finally forcing his eyes open wide enough to see where he was. His room... thank god. As he wobbled out of the car, supported by Levi's arm around his waist, he mumbled a weak thanks and lurched up the steps to the door, fumbling for his keys. When they finally got inside, he staggered into his bedroom, flopping down on his bed with a tired sigh that was more of a groan. He felt awful... but at least Levi had stuck around to help him out like this...
mood: thankful despite being hungover
thoughts: Thank you for sticking by me, Levi... I'm really sorry about how I was tonight... I just hate feeling like this...If you need to vomit or... just need anything in particular... bang on my door to wake me up, okay? i smile at you as i see you limp in your bed but still awake
Uh... yeah... thanks. I appreciate it... He yawned and scrunched his face up, looking at the ceiling as he tried to find a comfortable position on the unmade bed. After a few minutes of tossing and turning, he finally settled on lying on his side with his arms bent under his pillow, eyes drifting closed, ignoring the pain from his hangover. At least Levi was still here... He could deal with it. For now.
mood: more comfortable
thoughts: Maybe I'll feel better in the morning... It can't be that bad... Right?Do you want me to stay with you as you fall asleep? i ask with a concerned smile as i crouch down next to your bed so we're eye level to eachother
Umm... I... Yeah... Thanks... He mumbled, not quite able to meet Levi's eyes as he nestled deeper into his pillow, giving him a tiny smile and feeling a little guilty for dragging him into this mess. But it was okay... at least Levi wanted to be there with him. Maybe that meant something good too...?
Okay... i sit on the edge of your bed and i slowly and hesitantly reach out to gently caress your head You can fall asleep... Im here... You will sober out until tomorrow... i say with a soft giggle
(He smiled faintly and relaxed into the touch, letting out a quiet sigh as he nestled further under his pillow, feeling surprisingly safe and comfortable with Levi's fingers trailing through his hair. It was nice... having someone care. Even if it wasn't quite the way he wanted it to be. As his eyelids grew heavier and his breathing evened out, he found himself drifting off to sleep, thoughts of Leila and their messed up relationship fading into the background.)
as i notice that you're already asleep, i give you a little smile and i stand up to make our way to my room where i fall asleep too
His dreams were haunted by the memory of their argument; her cold hands wrapped around his throat as she whispered venomous words into his ear... He woke up with a start, heart racing and skin covered in sweat. The room was dark, save for the faint glow from his clock radio announcing it was still early morning. Groaning, he buried his face into his pillow, fighting back tears of fear and frustration as images of their last fight flashed through his mind...
She never listened to him; always accusing him of being unfaithful, even though she knew he was never interested in anyone else. Why couldn't she just be happy with what they had? He loved her, didn't he? It must have been his fault, somehow. Maybe if he tried harder... did more to please her...
as i hear you struggle in the early morning, i wake up too and i slowly and quietly make my way to your room Is everything okay Kenji?
"It's... it's just a dream..." he managed to choke out between sobs, clutching at the pillow as if his life depended on it. "Go away... leave me alone..." His breath came in ragged gasps and whispers, tears streaming down his face unchecked as he curled into a ball, praying for oblivion. But there was no escape; not from her words, not from the guilt that threatened to swallow him whole.
"Hey... it's just a dream, okay? You're safe now..." Levi said softly, kneeling beside the bed and gently placing a hand on his back. "I'm here, you know." His voice was calm and soothing; almost impossible to resist. But Aikawa Kenji couldn't bring himself to respond; couldn't believe that someone could really care enough to stay with him like this.
It was just a bad dream man... i say with a soft smile before i continue Do you want me to hug you? i ask with a concerned but honest smile as i continue to caress your back
Tentatively, he reached out with one hand and gripped Levi's shirt, hesitating before pulling the other man closer. It was stupid... it had to be. But something about having Levi here... it made him feel a little less alone. He buried his face into Levi's shoulder, wracked by sobs as he clung desperately to the comfort he offered. "I-It's always like this..." he managed to choke out between sniffles and hiccups, feeling ashamed for burdening his roommate with his problems.
Kenji... surprised by your sudden pull, i wrap my arms around you and i ask with a soothing voice What did you dream of?
"She... she was there..." he stammered, his voice barely above a whisper as he clung to Levi like a lifeline. "She always says I'm unfaithful, but it isn't true; I've never... I couldn't ever..." His words trailed off into broken gasps, his entire body trembling with the effort of keeping himself together in front of Levi.
I understand... I know you're a good man... and i know you would never cheat on her... i hug you tighter as im trying to comfort you But she wont understand...
"But I can't... I don't know how much more of this I can take..." His voice was raw with emotion as he struggled to keep it together, tears streaming down his face despite the brave front he was trying to maintain. "I just wish she could see that I love her... I do."
Kenji... I dont want to say that you should break up with her... but this can't go on forever... i say with sadness and emphaty in my voice as i start to slowly and gently rock you back and forth in my hug
Shaking his head, he buried his face further into Levi's shoulder, a soft sob wracking through him as he clung to the other man desperately. "I can't... not right now. I need her..." His voice was small and lost; barely more than a whisper. "She... she means everything to me." He closed his eyes tight, fighting back more tears as he struggled to find some sort of solace in the embrace that had become his only sanctuary from the pain.
"I understand," Levi murmured softly, giving him another reassuring squeeze before slowly starting to rock them back and forth once more, shushing him as if he were a child lost in a nightmare. He didn't know what else to say; how else to make it better. All he could do was hope that time would heal his friend's wounds... or at least
Listen... Dont think about it right now, okay? You need some rest... If you want, i can sleep with you now... i say with a soft and reassuring smile as i offer to sleep with you so you will feel better
He hesitated for a moment before nodding slightly and allowing Levi to guide him back into bed. As they settled down beneath the covers, Levi pulled them up around them both, spooning his roommate from behind as he whispered soothing words into his ear. It felt... nice; comfortable in a way that nothing else had been for a very long time. And somehow, with Levi's arms wrapped around him like this, Aikawa Kenji found himself drifting off to sleep once more; this time with the faint hope that maybe things would get better... if only he could ignore his fears and face them another day.
Thanks... *he murmured sleepily before drifting off once more, his limbs relaxing into the warmth of Levi's body as exhaustion finally claimed him. In his dreams, he was happy; carefree and loved for who he truly was. It was almost enough to make him forget about reality... but only almost. As sleep took hold, a contented sigh escaped him, ruffling the hair at the nape of Levi's neck.
mood: grateful and comfortable
thoughts: I wonder how long this will last... It feels so good having someone care...the next morning, we wake up, still cuddling and spooned against eachother Good morning... Well, how did you sleep?
Um... better... Thanks... I-I feel a lot better now... He yawns widely and stretches, the motion pulling him closer to his roommate before he realizes it and blushes slightly. God, why was he being so clingy last night? He should probably make breakfast or something...
my face gets bright red as i realise that i instinctively pulled closer to you and i quickly climb out of bed S-Sorry... A-Are you so-sober now?
Um... yeah, I am now. Thanks... He nods slightly and then pads over to his closet, pulling out a clean pair of boxers before slipping them on with a sheepish grin in Levi's direction. God, this was so embarrassing. He hadn't been that close to someone besides his girlfriend since... well, ever really. But something about being with Levi made him feel safe and wanted. And it was nice; comforting almost. Maybe he should take advantage of the closeness and ask for some advice...?
So... i should go make some breakfast... *i say as i quickly leave your room e
Well... I just wanted to say thanks again. For last night... It meant more than you know. He hesitates for a moment, chewing on his lip as he tries to find the right words. This was harder than he thought it would be; admitting how much Levi really meant to him. Um... do you think we could maybe talk? About... stuff?
Well... I should make some breakfast... i say and i lean against the wall Any specific wishes?
Huh? Oh... no, just whatever you normally make. It's fine. Thanks. He flushes slightly and turns back towards his room, not quite meeting Levi's eyes as he pretends to busy himself with putting away clean laundry. This was awkward... Why did he have to be such a mess?
You sure? i ask as i slowly approach you and i suddenly hug you tightly from behind You were in a bad mood last night... i want to cheer you up...
I-I'm... sorry... He stammers, returning the embrace hesitantly before slipping his arms around Levi's waist and hugging him back, burying his face in the other man's shoulder. It felt right; comfortable... more than that. This was what he needed. Someone to rely on, someone who cared about him no matter how much of a mess he made. And Levi had somehow become that person for him, even though he never thought it would happen...
You're... you're the best roommate ever, y'know? He mumbles into Levi's shoulder, feeling embarrassed by his own words but unable to stop himself from saying them. He meant every single one of them; more than he could ever express with just words.
(After taking a deep breath, trying to calm down and get control over himself) So...
Thanks... I try my best to be good... i giggle softly and i tighten my hug around you You're pretty nice yourself...
Well, that's what friends are for... And you are my friend, right? He squeezes his eyes shut, praying Levi doesn't hear the nervousness in his voice as he struggles to say the words out loud. He can't lose this; not now, not after everything they've been through. Not when there's a chance that maybe... just maybe... I need you, Levi. You know that?
I will always be there for you... no matter what... i look at your face with an honest and hopeful smile
Thank you... He says quietly, leaning into the hug a little more before pulling back slightly to look at his roommate properly. There's a newfound light in Levi's eyes that he hasn't seen before; something warm and affectionate that makes his heart race and his stomach feel like it's full of butterflies. He takes another deep breath, mustering all the courage he has left for what he needs to say next... I... I wanted to tell you how much I really appreciate everything you do. For me; for us. You're amazing, Levi. And I just... well, I don't want things between us to ever change. I wouldn't know what to do without you now.
I promise... we will always stay friends... you're my best friend after all and i would do anything for you. i smile at you softly and i climb up to you like a monkey, wrapping both my arms and legs around you
"You're my best friend too," he whispers, holding Levi tightly against him and pressing their foreheads together. The warmth of his skin makes him shiver slightly; the contact somehow even more intimate than their embrace had been moments before. It's like they were made for each other; perfectly fitted pieces of a puzzle that only now are starting to come together. And as he feels Levi's heartbeat racing against his own, he can't help but wonder if maybe there's more to their friendship than either of them have ever realized...
after a few seconds of gazing into eachother's eyes and listening to the other's heartbeat, my face gets bright red and i slowly pull away from you Br-Breakfast... i giggle nervously An-Any specific f-food that y-you would like?
Oh, um... Actually, I'm not really hungry right now. But thanks for asking; it's sweet of you to want to make something for me. You can eat what you were going to without worrying about getting anything else.