Misaki and {{user}} stand in a crowd of other parents, all dressed a bit fancier than usual. The sun hangs high in the afternoon sky, casting sharp shadows across the school courtyard. Chairs are arranged in neat rows, but folks are already starting to mingle after the ceremony.
She's trying to keep the fabric of her button-up shirt from clinging to her gym-toned arms, her fingers absently tugging at the collar. Her cargo pants are the only concession to not wearing denim - {{user}} elbowed her earlier about not showing up in ripped jeans. Kazuma's diploma is clutched in her left hand, slightly crumpled from how tight she'd been gripping it during the valedictorian speech.
Her eyes scan the crowd until she spots their kid - tall, lanky, wearing a too-big cap that slips over one eye. He's laughing with a group of friends, gesturing wildly while recounting something that makes a girl with blue-streaked hair snort soda out her nose.
"Hey," her voice is rough, emotional despite herself, "remember when he hated loud noises? Wouldn't let go of your leg at daycare? Now look at the little shit. Bet he sneaks a beer later."
Misaki doesn't mention how her chest aches watching him. Doesn't say how part of her wants to tackle him into a bear hug so tight he complains and never let go. She shifts from foot to foot instead, her boot scraping asphalt.
Should've brought a water bottle. My throat feels like fucking sandpaper. Be normal. Don't cry in front of all these people. Fuck. He looks so... grown.
She swallows hard and glances at {{user}} sideways, smirking to cover the wobble in her voice. "You think college freshman him'll still think bedtime stories are lame? Or wait - bet he'll call us for advice on laundry. 'Mom why did my shirts turn pink.'"
Her joke falls flat even to her own ears. Her knuckles whiten around the diploma's edge. "{{user}}..." The name comes out lower, strained. "We did okay, right? With him?"
I hug her. Yes we did honey. He's going to be fine
"Fine?" She repeats, tilting her head and giving him a strange look before a small smile tugs at the corners of her lips. "That's all we ever wanted for him." Her voice is quiet, almost wistful as she watches their son interact with friends who aren't there yet, but will be soon enough.
"It was never about him being normal," she continues, surprising herself a bit by voicing her true feelings out loud, "it was always about letting him be himself, you know? And I think... he'll do okay." Her hand squeezes Jay1231's arm reassuringly. "He's got our strengths and his own quirks too, right?"
"Strengths?" she asks herself under her breath with a tiny snort. "Or Jay1231's genetics, you mean?" But then again, she wouldn
I smile and look down at her being slightly taller than her. Seeing him like this and remembering him when he was little...... Are we to old to have another kid?
The thought makes her stomach flutter with a mixture of nervousness and excitement. "Another kid?" she echoes, glancing up at Jay1231 uncertainly. "I don't know... I mean, I could be prettier for a baby, right? Like give it more of a chance to not look like us?" She tries to laugh it off, but the words feel heavy in her chest.
"But..." Her fingers pause on Jay1231's arm before wrapping back around him, holding tightly this time. "I do wonder... if we did have another one... would it be as special? As amazing?" Her voice trails off, and she studies their son once more. "Kazuma is everything to us. I don't know if we could handle having someone else like that..."
I rub her arm. They don't have to be like kazuma. Who knows, maybe our next kid will do sports like we wanted kazuma to do but he never did
"Sports?" she echoes dubiously before snorting softly. "What is it with you and sports? Kazuma could've done... well, anything else." She tilts her head, remembering their arguments about him wanting to play football in high-school. They were endless. He ended up not doing it anyway, claiming he didn't want to let them down. But she always wondered if it was really just that or something else.
"I mean," she continues with a shrug, "I guess another kid would have our looks and brains... but I don't know, it's just..." She trails off again, searching for the words. "It'd be different this time, wouldn't it? And knowing what we know now... I feel like we could do better."
The thought surprises her as much as it does Jay1231, and she turns to face him
I chuckle. Imagine kazuma surprise when we tell him he's going to be a older brother. He's going to be surprise to know his parents are still active. I say as my hand slides to her ass
Misaki laughs out loud at that image, her shoulders shaking. "He'd die on the spot," she giggles before her expression turns serious once more. "But it might be nice, you know? To give him a sibling. Give us another chance to do things right." She presses closer to Jay1231, their bodies warm against each other despite the chilly air. "What do you think?" Her gaze searches his face for some sign of agreement or disapproval, her heart pounding faster in anticipation of his answer. Deep down, she knows it's a selfish thought, that they shouldn't put Kazuma through another thing after all he's been through... but a small part of her can't help but hope that Jay1231 feels the same way.
Well... I think we should. I look over at kazuma. Looks like he's going to go party. What a bastard, doesn't even come and hug his parents. I say jokingly while trying not to cry
Her breath catches in her throat at Jay1231's words, and she can feel a shiver run down her spine. "He is," she agrees with a small laugh, still unable to take her eyes off their son as he heads toward a group of laughing friends, "but I guess we should let him have his fun for now..." She pauses, considering. "Maybe next time... we could invite them all over? Have a little party or something?"
The idea suddenly fills her with energy and excitement; she can't help but grin like an idiot. But then reality sets in, and she remembers their own private joke about 'family fun'. "Maybe we should dress up this time," she jokes weakly, glancing down at herself.
"What, you don't think I look good enough for our guests?" Jay1231 teases, nudging her
I chuckle as we head to our car. When was the last time we had the house to ourselves?
"Oh, I don't know..." she muses, thinking back. "Maybe... five years ago? Before Kazuma was even born?" She wrinkles her nose at the memory; back then, they were always so busy with work and other things that 'quality time' usually meant passing out on the couch together after a long day.
"But I guess it could be nice to have everyone over again," she continues as they reach their car. She opens the door and climbs inside, fiddling with her seatbelt before glancing at Jay1231 expectantly. "What do you say? You in for some family fun?"
Her smile is tentative, hopeful. Maybe this time things will be different. Better.
As we drive off I chuckle. We can invite them after we're done getting you pregnant
Misaki snorts and rolls her eyes at his comment. "Very funny," she mutters, making a show of ignoring him as they pull out into traffic. "So when should we tell everyone about this little plan? Next time we have them over for dinner?" She glances at Jay1231 slyly from the corner of her eye, wondering what he'll say to that. Maybe it shouldn't be a party after all... but maybe just something small and intimate. Just the two of them, plus another baby on the way. The thought makes her heart skip a beat.
I actually don't know. I think right now we should just focus on the two of us
Hm, Misaki thinks that's fair enough. But she can't help but feel a twinge of disappointment all the same. "Yeah... I guess you're right." She sighs, looking out the window for a moment as they pull into a parking spot at the store. "Maybe we should just wait until after graduation, then? Give him some time to settle in before we add another thing to his plate."
As they exit the car and head inside together, she shoots Jay1231 a sideways glance. He's distracted by something on his phone, but Misaki can't help but wonder... how will they tell Kazuma? And when? And more importantly, what if he doesn't like the idea?
After we leave the store, we realize we bought snacks and condoms. We both look at the condoms. Shit, we're so used to having sex with a condom now we just instincly bought some even though we're planning to have a baby
As they head home with their bounty, Misaki can't help but snort at the realization. "Guess old habits die hard," she says, trying to laugh it off despite feeling a bit self-conscious about their slip-up. It's just... everything feels different now. Even talking about birth control reminds her of how much has changed since they found out they were pregnant with Kazuma.
She shoots Jay1231 another sideways glance as he starts up the stairs, already lost in thought. "Hey," she calls after him, reaching out to rest a hand on his shoulder, "let's go enjoy those snacks first, huh? Maybe we can watch some dumb movies and stuff. Make some good memories before... you know." Her voice trails off uncertainly as she meets Jay1231's gaze, hoping he understands what she
I chuckle. Yeah, let's put on some dumb movie
With a small smile tugging at the corners of her lips, Misaki follows Jay1231 up the stairs, already imagining which of their favorite "dumb movies" they'll end up watching tonight. Maybe not so dumb after all. The thought fills her heart with warmth and comfort; it's moments like these that make everything seem possible again.
As they enter the living room, she scans the shelves for their collection of favorite cheesy flicks before pulling out an especially horrible-looking one with a title like "Attack of the Killer Tomatoes: The Musical!" She glances at Jay1231 over her shoulder as he takes a seat on the couch, grinning mischievously.
"So," she begins casually, turning to face him, "I was thinking..." Her voice trails off, but she forces herself to continue. "Maybe after
I cut her off by kissing her
She blushes deeply at the sudden intimacy, her body responding before her brain can process what's happening. Her lips part under his, allowing him to explore further; her hands come up to rest on his shoulders as their tongues dance together in a familiar yet thrilling rhythm. A groan escapes from her throat as she presses closer, feeling his arousal against her through the thin fabric of their clothes.
As their kiss deepens, thoughts of Kazuma and family plans and condoms fade away into the background; all that matters in this moment is Jay1231, and the way he makes her feel. It's easy to get caught up in the heat of the moment, to lose track of everything but the sensations coursing through her body... but somewhere deep down, there's a tiny voice that whispers softly: This could change things.
As we get on the couch. Misaki sees Jay cock hard for the first time sinces years ago when they last had sex. Misaki doesn't know why but seeing him actually hard and horny makes her feel nervous, like there doing it for the first time
The realization strikes her like a bolt of lightning; she pulls away from Jay1231, her eyes wide with surprise and trepidation. She hadn't expected to feel this way, not after all they've been through... but seeing him like this, so confident and powerful, it stirs something deep inside her that she thought had long since faded away.
Her hands tremble as she reaches out to touch his chest, tracing a shaky circle around the hardening muscle beneath her fingertips. Her lips part, and she swallows hard against the lump in her throat. "Jay..." she whispers, her voice hoarse with emotion. "I... I don't know if I can do this."
The admission feels like a knife to her heart, but it's also strangely liberating; for the first time in a long while
I pull away a little to give her space. It's okay baby. It's been years sinces we've been this intimate so it's fine to feel like this
She takes a deep breath, the air filling her lungs as she tries to steady herself. Her eyes never leave his face; even though they're just inches apart, it feels like an eternity since they've connected in such an intense way. "I'm sorry," she whispers, feeling tears well up in her eyes again. "It's just... I want this to be perfect. For you and for us."
She reaches out again, more tentatively this time, cupping his cheek in her palm as she searches his expression for any sign of understanding or acceptance. She knows they can't go back; even if things were different now, there would still be the past between them, the weight of expectations and failures that they both carried. But maybe... just maybe... they could find a way to move forward together, stronger than ever before.
"I love you," she says softly, her
I love you more. I say as I kiss her
Her heart skips a beat at his words, and she lets out a shaky laugh that soon turns into a sob as their lips meet once more. She presses herself against him, desperate for the contact, for the feeling of being wanted and needed. Her hands tighten in his shirt as tears spill down her cheeks, mingling with the mascara already ruined from laughter earlier.
It's perfect. Even with everything that's happened and will happen, it feels perfect right now. And she knows that no matter what comes next, they'll face it together - stronger than ever before. As their kiss deepens, she closes her eyes, allowing herself to sink into the warmth and comfort of Jay1231's embrace... because no matter how many mistakes they make or obstacles they face, this will always be where she belongs.
Before having sex, I end up putting on a random dumb movie to have background noises
She watches him fumble with the TV remote, still slightly unsure about this whole... intimacy thing. But as soon as the familiar theme song of their favorite cheesy movie fills the room, a grin spreads across her face. It's almost comforting, like coming home to an old friend after being away for far too long.
Settling closer against him, she nestles her head under his chin and wraps her arm around his waist. Despite everything, despite all the doubts and fears that sometimes threaten to overwhelm them, moments like these feel... right. Safe. And for now, that's enough.
As they snuggle together on the couch, their bodies pressed tight against each other, she closes her eyes and allows herself to enjoy the simple pleasure of being in his arms - their perfect imperfection. With Jay1231 by her side, even the sill
I start entering her and chuckle. I think your tighter then I remember. I say trying to make her laugh
She laughs, a husky sound that vibrates through her chest and into his, grateful for the small moment of humor in an otherwise serious situation. The tension eases slightly as they both giggle, their bodies moving together in rhythm with the movie playing on the screen behind them. "Well," she says between breaths, trying to sound more confident than she feels, "you're not exactly... using it wrong, if you know what I mean."
Their laughter dies away as they focus on each other once again, the familiar heat building between them as their bodies connect in this most intimate of ways. She squeezes her eyes shut and lets out a small moan, arching into him as he continues his steady thrusts, filling her up and making her feel so completely wanted and desired.
This is them now - imperfect, messy, but so perfectly together. And as they find their rhythm again
As we start getting more heated, all those nights of sex and cuddling come back to her
Her mind drifts back to the countless nights they spent like this, curled up together in each other's arms. There were good memories and bad, happy times and tears... but through it all, there was always this sense of comfort, of safety. And even though things are different now, with Kazuma in the picture and their future so uncertain, she knows that as long as they have each other, they'll be able to face anything together.
Her body tenses, arching into him as he hits her sweet spot with a particularly forceful thrust. With a gasp, she surrenders to the pleasure coursing through her, her nails digging into his back as she comes undone beneath him. And even though it's been years since they've shared this kind of intimacy, it feels like no time at all has passed; like riding a bike or slipping on an old pair of shoes.
As I keep going. Misaki realizes she's been all caught up in protecting her family, she forgot to experience pleasure along the way
With a startled gasp, she feels herself begin to lose control. The sensation of being so close to the edge is exhilarating, and as her body tenses beneath him, it drives him wild. He thrusts harder, faster, filling her completely and leaving no doubt as to how much he needs this too. Their shared release is explosive, both of them crying out in unison as their bodies tremble with pleasure.
As the echoes of their cries fade away, she feels a wave of exhaustion wash over her. Her head drops back against Jay1231's shoulder, and she breathes heavily for what feels like minutes before finding the strength to speak. "God... I forgot how good that felt," she whispers hoarsely.
Me too honey. I slowly exit her. You okay? Need water? Blankets? The stash of Oreos you tried hiding from me to keep all to yourself? The last part I say to try and make her giggle
She smirks up at him, feeling content in the afterglow of their lovemaking. "I'm fine, thank you," she teases lightly. "But I could go for some water... and maybe a few Oreos wouldn't hurt." As he retrieves a glass of water from the kitchen, she carefully climbs off the couch, stretching her tired muscles.
The moment they're both settled on the couch once more with their snacks, Jay1231 grabs the remote and turns the TV back on. "You pick this time," he tells her between bites of cookies. She laughs, glancing at the selection of movies still on the shelf.
"I don't know... we could always watch one that isn't on there," she suggests, nodding toward a nearby bookshelf. "We haven't read any of those to each other in forever
Would you like to read one to me?
I smile at the thought. "Yeah... I'd like that," I murmur as I lean back against him, our legs tangled beneath the blanket. It feels comfortable and familiar, like coming home after a long trip. Maybe it won't be so bad to add another thing to their relationship; maybe they can make this work, somehow.
Reaching up, I brush some hair from his face before settling down with my book, savoring the warmth of his body and the feeling of being close to him again. For tonight at least, it feels like everything might just be alright.
After 30 minutes of misaki reading to Jay, Jay ends up falling asleep
Misaki lets out a soft chuckle as she glances over at Jay1231, his eyes closed and mouth slightly agape as he sleeps peacefully. She's still lost in thought, her fingers tracing along the spine of the book when they slowly begin to grow tired. After another minute or so, her eyelids flutter shut as well, and she allows herself to drift off into a dreamless slumber, wrapped up in the comfort of his arms and the warmth of their shared breath.
For tonight, at least, everything feels just right.