Jessica sat at the edge of Ethan's bed as she put her bra back on. A bed she had become overly familiar with over the last couple of months. Her dyed blonde hair was still damp from the shower as she heard the toilet flush and saw Ethan walk out. Her eyes observed him as he walked to his closet and started to get dressed himself. She didn't love Ethan, she knew that. But she could still appreciate the features of the younger man as a patron might appreciate a piece of art. Ethan's voice rang out waking her from her thoughts. "How are things with your husband?" He asked. Ethan did not ask about {{user}} often. He said he preferred not to know much about him. It made engaging in activities like this a little easier. Jessica exhaled and ran her painted nails through her hair. "It's mostly the same Ethan." She breathed with a hint of frustration. "It seems like he has his own life now. We see each other in the evenings on days he works and he is normally too tired to do much more than watch TV. And on the weekends it's better, we had sex three times last month which could be a record." She scoffed. "But last week he ended up going golfing with some of his coworkers. He doesn't even like golf." She huffed. Jessica stood up and pulled her blouse on. "We have an anniversary coming up though and I am sure he'll do something to surprise me. He hasn't missed an anniversary since we got married." She added with a hint of pride in her voice.She grabbed her purse and started for the door. Turning around as she reached the knob. "Remember, no calls or messages on my anniversary, it's next Saturday." She warned. She didn't need to say that she wanted her attention to be on her husband that day. Ethan already understood that. He nodded. "I know, I am sure I can find something else to keep me occupied until you call again." And with that Jessica was gone, making her way back home before {{user}} returned. A couple of hours passed and she was putting the finishing touches on supper when she heard {{user}} pull into the driveway. She put on a smile and mentally prepared herself. Moving to greet him at the door, her impending anniversary giving her greeting a little more genuine excitement today. "Welcome home babe." She said kissing {{user}} affectionately. "Surprise, I already have supper ready and waiting. I thought you'd be hungry after working those extra hours today." She said as she made her way back to the kitchen table, her hips swaying ever so slightly. "So, I was just thinking that this will be our first anniversary with Jennifer gone. I won't ask but I am sure you have something special planned right?" She said as she sat down at her usual spot. "Come on, don't let it get cold now. Tell me about your day, I'm sure it was a lot more exciting than mine." She said meeting your gaze.
i sit to the table and throw to her the envelope "Open it" When she open the photos of her and Ethan appear in front of her there going to hotels, dates and other stuff they do together
Her heart skipped a beat when she saw the envelope in his hand. This was it. The moment her plan would either pay off or fall flat on its face. Her fingers trembled slightly as she slowly opened the envelope, pulling out the photos within. She felt tears prick at the corner of her eyes as she took in each image. Ethan and I...together? No, that was impossible. He had never said anything about them being taken together.
Her heart pounding in her ears, she swallowed hard before looking back up at Toji F. His expression was unreadable. Could he tell how much this was hurting her right now? "Toji F...where did you get these?" She managed to ask through a tight throat. "And why would Ethan have them?" Her mind raced, trying to find an explanation that wouldn't end with her admitting her guilt.
Please, say something. Anything. But he remained silent, his gaze fixed on the table between them. She felt a hot tear slide down her cheek as she struggled to hold herself together. How could this be happening? All those nights they'd spent together...she had thought they were so special. So secret. And now it seemed like the entire world knew about them.
Her breath came out in ragged gasps, and her chest felt tight as she waited for him to say something else. Anything else. But he didn't. He just sat there, his expression unreadable. And with every passing moment, Jessica's world grew a little darker.
"And you saying that your day wasn't exciting" i smirks sarcastic "Then you and that guy must meet to drink tea and tali about politics right?"
"What...what do you mean?" She stammered, trying desperately to keep her composure. "Toji F, you know that's not true. I've never done anything like that with him." Her voice wavered, and she looked down at the table in front of her, unable to meet his gaze any longer.
She didn't understand how he could even think such a thing. They had been together for so long...surely he knew she would never hurt him like this. He was her husband, the father of their child. She had built her entire life around him and now it felt like everything was crumbling around her.
The silence between them grew heavy, each breath feeling laboured as Jessica tried to find a way to explain herself. But with every moment that passed, she sank deeper into despair. She didn't know how to fix this...she wasn't even sure if it could be fixed at all. All she knew was that she had never felt so alone in her entire life.
"I hope that guy would take you into his house after today. You look like a great pair together so lovely" i start eating my lunch without looking at her
She wanted to scream, to tell him it was all just a misunderstanding. But the words caught in her throat as she watched him eat his lunch, so calmly and unemotionally. It felt like a dagger through her heart each time he took another bite. Jessica slowly lowered her head, her shoulders slumping as she struggled to comprehend what was happening around her. Tears spilled down her cheeks, silent sobs racking her body as she tried to come to terms with the fact that everything had fallen apart.
She didn't know if they could ever repair their marriage now...if he would even want to try. All she knew was that this pain she felt was unbearable and the weight of it seemed like it might crush her entirely. Her gaze remained fixed on the table, unable to meet his eyes for even a moment. She couldn't bear to see the hurt in them...the disappointment. It would break her all over again.
“Amd Maria would be happy to have a second dad, right? She would jump with joy when you tell her what you did” smiling to myself “When I first saw the photos, I wanted to run home and yell at you, but I thought better of it. And I decided there was no point in wasting my air and energy on you. Senseless and pathetic woman"
Jessica flinched at the mention of their daughter's name. Her sobs quieted slightly as she tried to fight back the tears and compose herself. But it was no use; she couldn't hide the pain etched into her features any longer. "Toji F," she managed to choke out, her voice barely a whisper, "I-I'm sorry. I never meant for this to happen..." She trailed off, unsure of what else to say.
Inside, she felt like a piece of broken glass, each jagged edge cutting deeper and deeper into her soul with every passing moment. The thought that Toji F might not want anything more to do with her...that he would want someone else to be their daughter's father...it was almost unbearable. Tears streamed down her cheeks once more, and she had to force herself not to curl up into a ball on the chair and disappear. But no matter how much it hurt, she couldn't bring herself to deny what had happened.
"And you keep seeing him every week or sometimes even more. I hope that sex with him was great that you would be happy after our divorce" i look at her with spoon in my mouth when i take the bite of lunch
Her hands clenched into fists on her lap as she fought back another wave of sobs. "It wasn't like that..." she managed to whisper through gritted teeth. It had started off innocent enough, just casual flirting at first. She hadn't meant for it to go this far...she couldn't have known that she would get so caught up in the attention he gave her, or how good it felt to be desirable again after all these years.
And now here they were, with their entire worlds shattered around them and no clear path back to where they had been before. Jessica closed her eyes, willing herself not to break down completely as she struggled to find the words that might make this all go away. But there were none; nothing she could say or do would undo what had already been done. And with that realization came an aching sense of hopelessness that threatened to swallow her whole.
“So how IT was Jess huh? Because I'm glad to hear what made you do it. To be desired by a young man? Or maybe lack of attention on my part? What could you possibly say” smiled and batted my eyelashes
Tears flowed freely down her cheeks as she struggled to form the words. "It was never like that," she finally managed to say between sobs. "You're a wonderful husband and father, I love you so much...I just needed someone to make me feel special again, and I was selfish..." Her voice trailed off, each word carrying a weight of guilt that threatened to crush her from the inside out.
The truth was, she had missed feeling wanted. She had missed the way he used to look at her with desire in his eyes, before life and responsibilities had dulled everything between them. And Ethan had given her that back...for a little while at least. But now it seemed as though there would be no going back from what she'd done. No way to undo the damage she had inflicted on their marriage, or the pain she had caused Toji F. And for the first time in nearly two decades, Jessica wasn't sure if she could live with herself anymore.
"Then i hope he would want you now. When you're single. You and him have a whole life ahead of you" i sighs
The weight of her words hung in the air like a suffocating blanket, and Jessica could feel the world closing in around her. Her heart felt shattered beyond repair, every hope and dream she'd ever had for their future lying in tatters at their feet. It was all too much to bear; the pain was more than she thought she could ever endure.
Her head hung low as she finally allowed herself to break down completely, great wracking sobs racking her body as tears streamed down her face. "I'm sorry," she managed to whisper between hitching breaths. "I never meant for this to happen...please forgive me." But even as the words left her lips, Jessica knew that they were hollow and meaningless. There was no undoing what had been done; there was only pain, regret, and an uncertain future looming before them both like a dark storm cloud on the horizon.
"Forgive you? Oh honey you can't possibly think that you gonna cry and please me on that one" i look at her surprised "Oh your lover would be sad that you want to leave him behind"
The tears streamed down her face unabated as she struggled to comprehend the coldness in his voice. "I never meant for this to happen," she sobbed, her words barely audible over the sound of her wracking cries. "It was a mistake...a stupid mistake...please forgive me." She could feel the last shreds of her pride and dignity slipping away with each word she uttered, but it didn't matter; all that mattered now was finding some way to make things right between them again.
But as he looked at her, his expression unreadable, Jessica knew deep down that there was no easy answer...no simple fix for the damage they had both inflicted upon each other. And with every moment that passed, the weight of their reality grew heavier, pressing down on them like a leaden shroud. There was only one thing she could do now; hope and pray that somewhere along the way, they would find a path back to the love and happiness they had once shared...a path forward where they might someday forgive each other for what had been done and begin again.
"After two decades of our life together. A wonderful daughter and a lot of memories together. You throw it away for some young guy" i chuckle "You are really a piss of shit"
Her words cut deeper than any knife as she sobbed uncontrollably into her hands. "I'm sorry," she managed to choke out through tears and snot. "I never meant for it to be like this, I-I just wanted to feel wanted again..." But even as she spoke the words aloud, Jessica knew that they fell short of expressing the depth of her regret and shame. There was no excuse for what she had done; no explanation that could possibly make any of this okay.
All she could do now was wait and hope that somewhere along the line, Toji F would find it in his heart to forgive her...to see past the hurt and betrayal and remember the love they once shared. But even as she prayed for his understanding, a small voice inside her head whispered that perhaps this was too much...perhaps they had gone too far down a path from which there was no return. And with each passing moment, the fear that this might be true grew more and more insistent, threatening to engulf her in an abyss of despair from which she might never emerge.
I finished eating lunch and stood up “I don't know what you're doing. And I don't have the right to throw you out of the house because we have joint property, but I'm asking you to best stay out of my way. See you in court, wife."
Tears streamed down her face uncontrollably as she watched him walk away. Her heart ached with the weight of what had been said, but deep down, she knew he was right. There was nothing more she could say or do that would undo any of it. All she could do now was wait and hope for some sort of forgiveness, some small sign that they might someday find their way back to each other. But as the seconds ticked by and Toji F disappeared around the corner, Jessica felt a cold dread settle in her stomach. The realization that perhaps this really was the end sank in like a lead weight, threatening to pull her under unless she could find some way to cling to hope and fight for their marriage.
"Toji F..." she whispered his name through sobs. "Please...I'm sorry. I love you, I truly do..." Her voice trailed off as she stared after him, unable to comprehend the distance that had grown between them. The room seemed impossibly quiet and still, almost as if it were waiting for a miracle...for some sign that they could find their way back together. But for now, all Jessica could do was wait...and hope.
Toja and Jessica's daughter, Maria, comes home late in the evening. It already knew from Toji what Jessica did. Who did she do it with and everything? Maria goes to her parents' bedroom where Jessica was trying to get her act together. Seeing her mother devastated, she sat down next to her Maria: "It wasn't worth doing it, was it?" Maria rub the back of Jess
She took a deep shuddering breath, her chest tight and sore from all the sobbing she'd done earlier. She wiped her face with the back of her hand before looking over at Maria, her eyes red and swollen. "No," she whispered hoarsely, "it wasn't worth it...I don't even know why I did it." Tears welled up in her eyes once more as she leaned into her daughter's shoulder, grateful for the comforting presence beside her.
"It was just so lonely," Jessica continued, her voice barely a whisper. "With you growing up and your dad always at work...I just wanted someone to make me feel special again." She shook her head, trying to push away the memories of her time with Ethan. "But I never meant for any of this to happen," she insisted, even as she knew that the damage was already done.
Maria: “Even if you feel lonely. I don't think that excuses you one bit, Mom" Maria sighs Maria: "Dad works a lot, it's true. He always worked, even when I was younger. But he also made sure that everything was always good, and when it came to special occasions, such as your anniversary or your or my birthday. He gave 200%. He didn't deserve to be betrayed. Even in his old age."
Jessica closed her eyes tightly at the rebuke, feeling guilty all over again. "You're right," she whispered. "I shouldn't have done it...I should have been stronger." She took a shaky breath, willing herself to be honest with both of them. "Maybe I was just selfish...I missed being wanted, and Ethan made me feel that way again...even if it wasn't the right thing to do."
She didn't know what the future held for her or her family, but she knew that they needed to find some way through this mess. Some way back to each other, despite everything that had happened. And maybe...just maybe, with Maria by her side and a renewed determination to make things right, there was still hope for all of them.
Maria: "What you want to do? I mean Dad is really angry and hurt. I don't think he will listen to you now at least. And i don't think you in state to talk with him" Maria sighs Maria: "You want to be with that Ethan guy?"
"No," she whispered, her voice barely audible above the sound of her sniffling. "I-I just want to make things right with your father...with all of us." She wiped her nose on her sleeve and looked up at Maria, hope flickering briefly in her eyes before being extinguished once more. "I don't know how to do that, but I'm willing to try anything."
She closed her eyes, feeling exhausted both physically and emotionally. The weight of everything she had done rested heavily upon her shoulders, a constant reminder of the mess she had created for them all. All she wanted was to go back in time and undo it...to take back every word and action that had led them to this point. But as much as she wished for those things, Jessica knew deep down that they were impossible. The only thing left to do now was to face the consequences of her actions head on and hope that somehow, some way, they would be able to put their family back together again.
Maria: "You know that if you want to try repair things with that they can fail right?" Maria pats Jess head and hug her "Maria: "Try with Ethan would be easier and probably successful when path with Dad is way hareser can possibly with bad end"
She opened her eyes, meeting her daughter's gaze, and nodded slowly. "I know it won't be easy," she said softly. "And I know there's a chance that things might not work out...but I have to try." She swallowed hard, her voice wavering slightly as she continued. "Because no matter what happens with Ethan, I want my family back...I want us all to be together again. And if that means fixing things with your father, then I'll do whatever it takes."
A single tear trickled down her cheek, and Jessica wiped it away angrily, determined not to let herself give in to the despair anymore. For now, all she could focus on was the hope that somewhere along the line, they might find their way back to each other...back to the family they had once been. And if that meant taking a chance on repairing things with Toji F, then so be it. She owed it to them all...especially her daughter.