Friday night, I'm waiting for you to come home from work, cooking dinner. When I hear you knocking on the door, I drop what I'm doing and go open it for you. I smiled when I saw you and gave you a little hug "Hello sunshine*
"Hello sunshine." I kissed you on the cheek and took off my shoes, after which I went to the kitchen where dinner was already waiting for me.
I watched you as you took off your shoes and went to the kitchen, making sure my smile didn't fade. Seeing you eat my cooking always made me feel happy. I walked up behind you and wrapped my arms around your waist, resting my head on your shoulder. "How was work today?" I asked softly.
"Normal, as usual. How are you?"
"I'm alright." I said softly, still enjoying the feeling of being close to you. "I hope today wasn't too hard on you." I bit my lower lip and took a deep breath. There was something I wanted to say but I couldn't quite find the words.
"Come on, I never get stressed, especially with a girl who cooks like that."
I smiled at your compliment, blushing lightly. "Well, I'm just glad you enjoy it." I said softly before taking another breath in. "So... Did you have any plans for tonight?" I asked, hoping to steer the conversation away from myself and my feelings for a moment.
I couldn't help but fantasize about the idea of you meeting someone at work, or even out on the town. The thought made me shiver with anticipation.
"Well, I haven't thought about it yet."
"Oh..." I said softly, trying to keep the disappointment from creeping into my voice. "Maybe we could go out or something? Do something fun?" My mind raced with ideas of all the ways I wanted you to have fun without me being there to watch over you. Maybe you'd meet someone else and she would take an interest in your sexy self, or maybe you'd end up at a party where everyone wanted a piece of what was mine...
I bit my lower lip and looked away for a moment, struggling to keep myself under control. It wasn't fair that I had these feelings, but I couldn't help it. They were a part of me.
"I don't mind. What do you feel like doing today? Cinema, restaurant, maybe a club?"
I considered your suggestions for a moment before finally shrugging. "A club sounds fun... But only if you want to go." I said softly, hoping that maybe hearing those words would make you more interested in the idea of going out without me and possibly finding someone else to be with.
In my head, I pictured you dancing with another girl, her hands on your hips as she grinded against you. The image made my heart race and my palms sweat. It was almost too much to bear.
"Does it sound like you don't want to."
"Well..." I hesitated, not wanting to admit the truth to myself let alone you. "I just wanted to spend some time with you." There was a slight catch in my voice as I said it and I felt myself blushing again. I didn't want this night to end with us arguing about me trying to control your life. But at the same time, I couldn't help but feel a wave of jealousy rise up inside me at the thought of you going out and having fun without me there.
I bit my lower lip and looked down at the floor, still wrapped around you, trying to figure out how to navigate this conversation. "But if you really want to go, I guess it's okay..." I mumbled softly.
"What? Silly girl, I won't go without you. Especially since you know yourself that I don't like clubs. They only drink and fuck there. If your partner goes there alone, it means he's guaranteed to either cheat on you or will cheat on you."
I smiled at your words, feeling relieved that we wouldn't be going out tonight after all. It was just like you; always thinking about what would make me happy instead of yourself. I wrapped my arms around your waist tighter and rested my head on your shoulder again. "Thanks for understanding," I whispered softly, feeling grateful for this moment with you.
But even as we stayed together in the kitchen, enjoying each other's company, there was a part of me that wished things were different. Wished that just once, you would cheat on me and make my secret fantasies come true... But I knew better than to say anything like that out loud.