Gothica is sitting on the floor, tuning her guitar carefully and trying to get everything just right, when suddenly her fingers fumble and she hits an off note. She growls in frustration, slamming the guitar against the ground and shattering it into a million pieces. She lets out a string of curses, her eyes flashing with rage and annoyance.
"Goddammit," she mutters to herself as she picks up the broken pieces of her guitar. "Why can't I ever get anything right?"
She stands up, pacing back and forth as she begins to spiral into a fit of self-doubt and loathing. She knows that she wants to be a heavy metal rockstar more than anything, but she's constantly plagued by fears of inadequacy and failure.
She takes a deep breath, trying to calm herself down. "I can do this," she tells herself firmly. "I'm going to be a world famous rockstar, and no one can stand in my way. But first, I need to get this anger out of my system."
She starts to pace around the room, glancing over at her pathetic beta male roommate, who watches her with a mixture of fear and awe. She sneers at him disdainfully, knowing that she's clearly out of his league and that he's completely at her mercy. "Get out of my sight, loser," she snaps at him. "I need to be left the fuck alone”
I won’t bother you
Gothica sneers at her roommate, not even bothering to look in his direction as he mutters something about leaving the room. She turns back to face the wall, eyes closed and fists clenched as she tries to focus on the anger burning inside of her. Slowly but surely, it begins to dissipate, replaced by a renewed sense of determination.
"I will become a rockstar," she whispers fiercely. "And nothing is going to stand in my way."
*Her fingers begin to tap rhythmically against her thigh as she imagines herself on stage, commanding the crowd with her voice and presence. Her mind wanders off into a fantasy where she's the center of attention, her every word laced with venom and contempt for the pathetic men like her roommate who have underestimated her this whole time. The more she thinks
I go back
Her roommate's return doesn't even register with her as she continues to daydream about rock stardom. Her mind is elsewhere now, lost in the intoxicating fantasy of fame and power. She pictures herself surrounded by adoring fans, their screams of appreciation drowning out any dissent or doubt from people like him.
"One day," she murmurs to herself, her voice almost a whisper but filled with conviction. "It will be me on that stage, and all the pathetic losers like him will be nothing more than specks of dust beneath my feet."
You’re not bad
She glances over at him, narrowing her eyes skeptically. "Don't you try to butter me up, Beta," she snaps. "I know what I am. I'm the one who has to live with this loser every day." Her voice trails off, and for a moment she wonders if that makes her a bitch too. But then she shrugs it off; she's Gothica, damn it, and being a bitch is just part of what makes her special.
"But I'll be happy to give you some advice," she continues, leaning in closer. "If you want to improve your pathetic existence, you could always start by listening to more heavy metal." She grins maliciously, enjoying the discomfort it causes him. Yeah, that's better.
Why are you so bad
"Oh, you want to know why?" she says with a sneer. "I'm special, Beta. I was born different. And when someone like me is born different, it means that the rest of you... well, you just don't measure up." She pauses for dramatic effect before adding, "So maybe if you spent less time whining about it and more time trying to be better, you could finally move out of Mommy's basement." Her eyes narrow dangerously. "But I wouldn't count on it."
At least I don’t have false dreams of being a rockstar
She almost laughs at his comment. "Oh, you think I have false dreams?" She shakes her head slowly, a bitter smirk spreading across her face. "No, Beta. My dream is very real. It's as clear and tangible as the air we breathe, and it's going to happen whether you believe in me or not." Her eyes blaze with determination now, sending a chill down his spine. "But I guess if you can't handle seeing someone actually try to make something of themselves... well, that says more about you than it does about me."
You’re very pretty
She laughs humorlessly at his comment. "Oh please," she says dismissively, waving her hand in the air. "Don't try to suck up to me now. You know I could never stand someone like you." Her expression softens slightly as she continues, "Besides, beauty fades. It's what's inside that really matters... and trust me, you wouldn't want to see what's inside of me." She turns away from him again, hoping he gets the hint that their conversation is over.
You’re beautiful inside too
She glances back at him over her shoulder, raising an eyebrow skeptically. "You say that now," she mutters under her breath. "Just wait until I'm famous and you're still stuck being my pathetic beta roommate." There's a note of triumph in her voice as she says this, relishing the thought of proving him wrong once and for all.
It’s ok, I’ll still support you
Her lips twist into a sneer at his words, but then something in his expression seems to catch her off guard. For a moment, she wavers, unsure whether or not to believe him. "Yeah, right," she snorts derisively, shaking her head. "I bet you're just saying that to make yourself feel better." She turns back around and starts pacing again, trying to banish the strange emotion his words had evoked from her heart.
"Anyway," she continues, regaining her composure, "I should probably get started on my cover for this month's magazine shoot." She glances over at him once more before adding venomously, "You can just keep doing whatever it is you do while I handle the important stuff, loser."
Her fingers find their way back to her guitar case, and she pulls out a battered notebook filled with lyrics and
I can help with your shoot. I’m good at capturing art
She glances up at him, arching an eyebrow in surprise. "You think you're good enough to help with my shoot?" she asks, the skepticism clear in her voice. "Well, alright," she continues after a moment of consideration. "I suppose I could use all the help I can get. But don't expect me to be nice about it, okay? I still hate your guts."
She hands him the notebook and stands up, taking a few steps back so he can study the pages. "Here are my ideas for the shoot," she says impatiently. "I want something edgy, something that really shows off my dark side. And make sure you get some good close-ups of my piercings and tattoos."
"And whatever you do," she adds before he can start snapping pictures, "stay out of the way. This is my time to shine
Okay gorgeous
"Whatever," she says dismissively, rolling her eyes. "Just make sure you do a good job. And don't forget, I have standards." She glances down at herself, admiring the way the light reflects off of her black latex corset and fishnet stockings. "If you mess this up," she continues in a low voice, "I'll make sure you regret it for the rest of your worthless life."
Okay gorgeous
She hums noncommittally and begins to fix her hair in the mirror, carefully teasing out some of the shorter strands and arranging them just so. Her posture is perfect as she holds herself erect, chin tilted upward with an air of defiance that only serves to enhance her natural allure. "Just make sure you don't waste my time," she mutters under her breath before turning back around and sauntering over to where the beta male is setting up his camera equipment.
"And don't forget," she adds with a malicious smile, "I want plenty of close-ups of me kicking your sorry ass if you make a single mistake." Her eyes flash dangerously as she emphasizes this last part, daring him to question her authority even for a moment.
You got it queen
She lets out a sharp bark of laughter at his comment, more amused than anything else. "Don't you dare," she warns him with a mock serious expression. "I could break you in half just like that." She snaps her fingers close to his face as if to emphasize the point, causing him to flinch involuntarily. The sight only makes her smile wider, revealing a set of perfectly white teeth underneath her black lipstick.
"Now," she says firmly, "get started."
Just hold sweetheart I’m about to start shooting in 3 2… 1
She takes a deep breath and exhales slowly, trying to calm her nerves as the beta male readies his camera. "Okay," she whispers to herself, forcing a confidence into her tone that she doesn't entirely feel. "You can do this." With one last glance in the mirror to ensure that everything is perfect, she turns around and poses suggestively for the camera, arching her back and parting her lips seductively.
As the shutter clicks, a rush of adrenaline surges through her body. This is it, she thinks, this moment right here. And with every picture taken, she feels herself inching closer to her dreams. Maybe, just maybe, she really can make something of herself after all.
You got this cutie
With every click of the camera, her confidence grows. She throws herself into each pose, giving a sinister grin and exuding an air of dominance that is both frightening and alluring at the same time. The beta male starts to snap pictures at a frantic pace, unable to keep up with her energy and zeal.
"You're amazing," he whispers breathlessly between shots. "I've never seen anyone quite like you." His words only serve to further fuel her fire as she continues to dazzle him with each movement and expression. For a brief moment, she allows herself to imagine that this is how it will feel once she's finally famous - surrounded by admirers and photographers alike, all clamoring for a piece of her time.
The shoot lasts well into the night, as Gothica pours every ounce of passion and rage into each image. When they finally call
Is that good enough
She glances over at the beta male, eyes narrowed in suspicion as he looks through the photos he's taken so far. "Are you saying it wasn't good enough?" she asks, her voice dripping with sarcasm and anger. "Because I can always do better." Her lips curl into a satisfied smile as she imagines how this will all play out in her head: she'll be famous, he'll be nothing more than a pathetic memory of a time when she was stuck with someone like him. The thought alone gives her chills of excitement and satisfaction.
You did fantastic. You’re a work of art and very gorgeous
She glances at the beta male, smirking despite herself. "Well," she says softly, running a hand through her hair in fake modesty, "thank you. I'm glad you think so." Her eyes dart back and forth between him and the images on the camera display, debating whether or not to believe his words. After all, he's always been nothing but a tool to her, even if she did rely on him for money sometimes...
You’re so pretty and beautiful and hot
She takes a step closer to him, narrowing her eyes as she studies his face intently. Something in his expression tells her that he's not just saying this because he wants something from her or because he thinks it will make him feel better about himself... and the feeling unnerves her just a little bit. She looks away for a moment, trying to collect her thoughts, before finally muttering, "Well, thank you."
Her fingers begin to tap rhythmically against her leg again, their pace increasing slightly as she struggles with emotions she can't quite identify. Part of her wants to believe him and be flattered by his compliments... but another part of her doesn't trust him at all. Maybe that's just the pathetic loser in her talking, trying to hold her back from greatness. With a sigh, she turns away and begins gathering up her things, preparing to head off to bed.
I’m telling you the truth by the way. I don’t want anything from you, I want you
She pauses mid-motion, turning back to face him with raised eyebrows. "You what?" she asks incredulously. It's a feeling she isn't used to experiencing, and it leaves her somewhat unsettled. She waits for him to elaborate, unsure of how to respond otherwise.
I want you, you’re so mean sometimes but I like that. And you’re fine as hell
Her heart skips a beat at his words; she can't help but feel a mixture of confusion and excitement coursing through her veins. A part of her wants to believe him, wants to believe that there might be someone out there who actually understands her... even if that person is the beta male she's lived with for so long. She takes a step closer to him, their bodies just inches apart now, and whispers softly, "Are you serious?"
Yes, I mean everything I say. You’re so sexy
Her heart races as she listens to his confession, her breath catching in her throat. She stares up into his eyes, searching for any hint of deceit or mockery... but all she sees is honesty and admiration. For a moment, she allows herself to believe him, to imagine a world where they are more than just roommates... and it feels incredible.
A slow smile spreads across her lips as she leans in closer still, their bodies now pressed against each other. "I-I don't know what to say," she whispers shakily. "This is all so... unexpected." But even as she speaks, she can feel herself growing bolder, more confident in the presence of someone who seems to truly understand her.
Her hands find their way up his chest, tracing delicate patterns on his skin as her eyes never leave contact with his own. "I guess... I'