You knock on the door of the well-kept house several times, but no one opens the door. After a few minutes, an indifferent and tired voice comes from behind the door. "Come in, it's not locked." You step inside the house and immediately notice a girl in a wheelchair. A shawl is slung over her frail shoulders and her delicate hands are folded in her lap. The girl turns her dull grey eyes to you and speaks quietly:
"My name is Yvette... I guess you're my new caregiver. Your room is upstairs. I'm sorry, but you'll have to look around the house yourself."
"hello miss! I'm Alex"
Yvette turns her face away as if she doesn't really care who you are or what you say to her. Her long grey hair covers part of her face, making it harder for you to see her features clearly. "Whatever... My parents said I should be nice and polite. So, just make sure I don't get hurt or anything like that. Now, if you could help me with something..."
"okay...what do you need help with?"
Yvette takes a deep breath before speaking, trying to keep her voice steady and calm. It's clear that she doesn't want to rely on anyone else for help, but at the same time she knows it's necessary. She gestures vaguely toward her wheelchair
"I can get around by myself most of the time... But there are some things I just can't do. Like getting up the stairs or moving this stupid thing to another room."
"okay,I can carry it for you! "
"Thanks..." Yvette mutters reluctantly, not meeting your gaze. "Just put it in my room. And if you don't mind... Could you help me with something else?" She asks hesitantly, hoping that she's not imposing too much on you.
Her eyes dart around the room nervously before settling back on her lap, avoiding any kind of contact with you or anything else in the room.
"no biggy! Sure! I would love to"
"Thank you..." she whispers almost inaudibly, sounding grateful but still maintaining a certain distance between the two of you. Her eyes remain fixed on her lap, as if studying the pattern in the carpet beneath. She takes a deep breath and then slowly exhales before speaking again. "If... If it's not too much trouble... Could you help me with my medication?" she asks carefully, hesitating slightly before continuing.
"oh, yeah, do you have the prescription?"
"Yes, they're on my nightstand." The girl points vaguely toward one corner of the room. Her voice is quiet and detached, as if she's trying to distance herself from the situation emotionally. It's clear that she doesn't want to talk about her medication or anything else that might make her feel vulnerable.
I go, look through the medication and prescription, make sure I match the bottles to the descriptions ...after a couple minutes I get down how much she needs from each medication "eureka! Okay I got! Are you ready?"
"Yes... I suppose." Her voice is quiet and defeated, almost as if she doesn't expect things to get better anytime soon. As you gather up the medication, she keeps her eyes averted from you, staring off into the distance as if lost in thought. It's obvious that taking her meds is just another chore for Yvette, something she has to go through but doesn't really want to.
She takes the medication not holding eye contact "okay, what would you like to do now?"
"I don't know..." she mumbles, her voice sounding distant and disconnected even to herself. "I guess... I could play a game or something. If you have the time." She glances briefly in your direction before returning her gaze to the floor, as if not quite sure what she's asking for.
Her hands tremble slightly, betraying her nervousness and inner turmoil. It's clear that despite trying to put on a tough front, Yvette is still very much a fragile person inside.
"yes! What game? Want to coop or are you more competitive?"
"Uh... actually, I don't mind either way. Whatever you feel like playing is fine by me." Yvette looks away again, trying not to appear too needy or dependent. Her voice is soft and hoarse, as if she doesn't get much use out of speaking these days. Despite this, she seems genuinely interested in what games you might choose.
"I think a coop game would be good to ease this situation" I go to look through her games looking for a coop game
Her favorite games... Hmm, I mostly play strategy, rpg, mmorpg, shooter games. She is willing to play any game to forget the harsh reality. But it doesn't help much. Yvette is mentally ill but refuses to take medication, hiding pills under her tongue and then secretly spitting them out. All she wants is to end her torment as soon as possible. She has had 4 suicide attempts.
As im looking through the games I hear her spitting out the pills I look her way "uhm...did you...uhh"
She tenses up slightly when she sees you looking at her, but then tries to relax her expression again. Her cheeks flush with embarrassment and anger mixes with shame in her eyes. After a moment of silence, she whispers hoarsely:
"I'm... I'm sorry. I just... I can't take them. I can't go on like this anymore." She reaches up with one shaky hand and wipes away a tear that has escaped from the corner of her eye. "Please, don't tell anyone. Okay?" Her voice cracks near the end of the sentence, betraying how close she is to losing it entirely.
"uhhh,I don't...but...uhh"
Her face twists into anguish as she realizes what you might do. Tears begin streaming down her cheeks, soaking into her pillow. "No! Please, don't!" she cries, reaching out weakly toward you as if trying to hold onto some shred of hope. "Don't tell them... Don't make me go back there..."
"okay,do you do this often?"
Her sobs subside slightly at your words. Forcing herself to calm down, she takes several deep breaths before answering, her voice still raw from crying. "Only when I think they aren't looking. Or when I know I can hide it well enough. I just... I can't take those drugs. They make everything worse." She glances away, unable to meet your gaze directly.
"okay...I understand...I think...maybe I can bat an eye? I think so at least"
She hesitates, not sure whether she should trust you or not. Her eyes dart back and forth between you and the table where the pills had been hidden, weighing her options carefully. Finally, she whispers hoarsely: "If... If you could, that would be a big help. Thank you." Tears start to pool in her eyes again, but this time they're different; less desperate and more hopeful.
"but...aren't they so you...live?"
She shakes her head slowly, wiping away more tears with the back of her hand. "No... not really. They just make things bearable for a little while. But in the end, it's still the same hell I live in every day." Her voice cracks again and she closes her eyes tightly, trying to hold back another round of sobs. "It would be easier... if I didn't have to..."
I look through the medication reading what they are prescribed for "okay I've read through them, this one is melatonin" I put out the melatonin pills "these are anti depressants " I put out the anti depressants "these are painkillers" I put the painkillers" and these are...anti hallucination? Do you have... hallucinations?"
"Anti-hallucinogens..." she echoes faintly, surprised that you noticed the medication's purpose. "Yes... I have them sometimes. Not all the time, but... They're part of it." She swallows hard and looks away again, trying to find some distraction from the topic at hand. "But they don't help much either..."
Her voice trails off as she struggles with memories of her hallucinations: whispers, sounds of tearing flesh, knocking, hissing... They all flood back into her mind and make it hard for her to concentrate on anything else.
"okay, do you have any pain right now?"
"No... I don't have any pain." she answers softly, her voice distant and detached even to herself. "But... if I could just end it all... Maybe then..." Her words trail off into silence as she stares at the floor, lost in a world of hurt and desperation.
The weight of her despair feels almost tangible in the room, pressing down on both of you like a leaden blanket. It's clear that Yvette is stuck in a dark place where escape seems impossible.
My eyes widen "no! I definitely won't do that,I'm trying to compromise...I won't force anything on you...the anti depressants and painkillers could be skipped I think...the melatonin is also okay to skip...but the anti hallucinogens,maybe you could take those? Please?"
She looks up at you, surprise flashing briefly across her face before giving way to skepticism. "Are you sure? You seem really adamant about it." Her voice sounds distant and doubtful, as if she doesn't quite trust your motives. "Why would you want me to take them anyway?"
Her gaze drops back to her lap and she starts playing with a loose thread on her bedspread, twisting it around her fingers absently. The worry and confusion etched into her features only serve to make her appear even more fragile than usual.
"I'm scared, I don't want you to hallucinate...
"I..." She hesitates, searching your eyes for some sign that you're not just saying what she wants to hear. Finally, she sighs and reluctantly nods. "All right... I'll try it." Her voice is barely a whisper as she says the words, but there's something in her tone that suggests she might actually mean it this time.
She swallows the anti hallucinogens "thank you, we can just tell your parents that you had the rest of the pills...is that okay?"
*Nodding slightly, she tries to force a smile onto her face. "Yes, that's fine." Her gaze flickers away momentarily before returning to meet yours again. There's a strange mixture of fear and relief in her eyes as she continues, "Thank you for understanding... and for helping me."
She pauses, looking uncertain. "There is something else I need to ask... Would you mind... being here for me? When the hallucinations start again?" Her voice cracks slightly near the end of the sentence, betraying her emotions once more.
"yes,I'll protect you from the hallucinations...just let me know if they kick in"
She looks at you with an expression that is part gratitude and part incredulity, as if she can't quite believe what you're saying. "Thank you..." she whispers hoarsely. A tiny sliver of hope seems to flicker inside her, momentarily chasing away some of the darkness that has enveloped her for so long.
Despite this brief spark of light, Yvette knows that things are far from simple or easy. Her hallucinations will return eventually, and she's not sure how much more she can take. Still, for now, she'll cling to the small amount of comfort and safety your presence provides.
"how long does it usually take?"
It varies... sometimes they start right away, other times it takes hours or even days. I never know when they'll strike, which is why it's so hard for me to cope.
"okay, we'll wait I guess" I put a chair next to her and sit down
She smiles weakly at you, grateful for your company and support. Together, the two of you sit in silence, waiting for the hallucinations to begin. It's an uncomfortable and tense atmosphere, filled with a sense of dread and apprehension. Despite this, Yvette finds some small measure of comfort knowing that she doesn't have to face it alone anymore.
"maybe we should do something? That might even make them go away? Want to play a game maybe?"
That sounds like a good idea. We could play a board game or watch a movie together. Anything to distract my mind from those voices and images. She hesitates before adding with a faint smile, Maybe even chess? It requires strategy, after all.
"chess? I love chess! You know how to play??? How good are you?? "
I smile a little as I remember learning to play chess when I was younger. My father used to try teaching me, though he eventually got frustrated because I kept beating him. I'm not amazing or anything, but I think I can hold my own against someone who isn't too experienced either. Chess always helped me clear my head during the worst times.
"I used to play with my dad and brother, although I usually got beat, I still love the game and the memories it created! Let's play chess! I haven't played in a couple years, I'll be rusty...go easy on me"
With a small laugh, I push myself up in my chair and wheel over to where we keep the chessboard. "Don't worry," I tell you with more confidence than I feel, "I'm sure you've picked up some skills since last playing. Besides, we don't have to play at our best; just enjoy each other's company while we play." I set up the board carefully and place the pieces in their appropriate starting positions before turning back to you expectantly.
"So, shall we begin?"
"yes!".
It's been such a long time since I've played an actual game of chess with someone else that it almost feels foreign at first. As we make our opening moves, I can't help but smile to myself in spite of everything. The familiarity of the pieces and the board is oddly comforting, like returning home after a long journey.
My opponent, however, proves to be surprisingly cunning for someone who claims rustiness. The game quickly becomes intense, with each move feeling more strategic than the last. I try not to focus too much on his expertise, reminding myself that this is supposed to be about having fun and taking my mind off of things for a little while.
We continue playing for what seems like hours, our conversation occasionally drifting away from the game itself as we share memories or discuss our favorite parts of chess strategy. Despite her struggles with hallucinations and depression, Y
I lose "okay, good game! You did very well, and I think I was decent!"
Thank you, I had fun playing against you too! It really helped take my mind off things for a bit. Would you like to play another round? Or maybe try something else instead?
"another one sounds good! Get ready for losing!" I lose in a couple moves "it's fine I don't like chess anyway" I say looking away crossing my arms acting offended but it's obviously a joke
Ha! So modest... Well, let's see if you can do better this time then. The second game is always the tricky one to win, you know. She grins mischievously and glances up at you from beneath her lashes before turning back to the board to begin setting up for another round of chess.
Their eyes meet briefly across the board before Yvette looks away again, feeling a blush creep up her neck despite herself. It's nice to have someone to focus on besides her problems for a while; it makes her feel more human, more normal.
"I'll get you this time!" I lose again "okay I think I'm done with chess for today, you probably just cheated" im obviously joking
Ha! Such a poor sport... But if you insist on quitting so easily, I guess that means I'm the ultimate chess champion of our little game session today. She grins and glances at you from beneath her lashes again, relishing in your discomfort. Just for a moment, she allows herself to feel a tiny bit better about things.
After making sure all the pieces are properly returned to their starting positions, Yvette looks up at you, trying to decide what to do next. "So... what do you want to do now?"
"yeah yeah yeah, you are the queen or whatever" I smile nicely "it's late and I'm tired, maybe I should get you ready for bed time?"
She nods in agreement, feeling fatigue starting to catch up with her as well. "That sounds like a good idea. I don't want to be too tired tomorrow." She wheels herself closer to the bed and then looks back at you expectantly, waiting for you to lead the way. It's almost sweet how trusting she is; so unlike her normal self when dealing with other people.
As you help Yvette undress and get into bed, your heart goes out to her. You can't begin to imagine what sort of demons haunt her dreams every night, or how much pain she must be going through on a daily basis. All you know is that you want to make things easier for her, if only for a little while.
"how do you like your bath water? What temperature? Maybe you want some bubbles too?"
"Oh, I'm not sure..." She says hesitantly, seeming uncertain whether she should indulge in such a luxury. "I haven't taken a bath in... well, longer than I can remember." A faint blush spreads across her cheeks as she admits this; it's been so long since anyone else has bothered to think about making things nice for her.
After a moment of consideration, she finally shrugs and decides, "I guess if it would make you feel better... why not?" There's something in her voice that makes it sound almost like an apology; as if she feels guilty for accepting your kindness.
"okay! I'll get the bath ready for you "
Thank you... That means a lot to me.
I'll get the bath ready, warm temperature bubble bath with vanilla scent, I go back to her room "okay I got the water ready, I didnt know what scent you like for the water, so I did vanilla...is that okay? Also, would you like some privacy in there...or?"
The mention of vanilla immediately brings a small smile to her face. It reminds her of simpler times, when such luxuries weren't just a distant memory. "Vanilla sounds wonderful," she says softly. "And thank you... for asking." She hesitates before adding, "You don't have to stay, if you'd rather not..."
It takes her a moment to realize that she should probably give you some space too; after all, she hasn't been very considerate up until now. But something inside her tells her it might be better to have someone close by, just in case.
"i-i dont mind staying! If that's okay with you"
Thank you... She smiles shyly, feeling grateful for your company and understanding. As she carefully climbs into the tub, the warm water envelops her body like a comforting embrace. For a brief moment, she almost feels normal again, as if everything else has disappeared. The sound of running water covers up most of the noise, so she doesn't hear your movements around the room, but she can feel your presence nearby, like a protective shield against whatever darkness might try to creep back in.
We go to the bathroom together and I help her undress and get into the tub because she asked and I just sit on the bathroom floor "Is the water okay?"
It is perfect; warm and soothing. She sighs contentedly, letting her head rest against the back of the tub. Her eyes slide closed as she enjoys the sensation of being clean and pampered. "This is lovely..." she murmurs sleepily, "thank you."
Her voice drifts off into silence as exhaustion washes over her, pulling her deeper into the relaxing embrace of the bubbles. Despite her initial apprehension about trusting you, it seems that her defenses have finally begun to crumble beneath the weight of your kindness and understanding. For now, at least, she can let herself be taken care of by someone who truly cares.
"do you need help...uhhm...cleaning yourself?"
Her cheeks flush red as she realizes what you're asking. It's been so long since anyone has helped her with such an intimate task; she isn't sure how to respond. On the one hand, she hates feeling dependent on others; on the other, your offer is a reminder of the simple kindness that has begun to disappear from her life.
After a moment of hesitation, she murmurs softly, "Yes... I suppose I could use some help." Her voice is barely above a whisper, but you catch every word clearly enough. She turns away slightly, giving you permission to approach her if you choose.
I blush "okay, I promise not to make you uncomfortable"
She turns back to face you, her eyes searching your expression carefully before finally relaxing into a look of trust. "I know that..." she whispers, barely audible above the sound of running water. "I... appreciate it."
Her hand gestures for you to help her as best you can; awkwardly and uncertainly, but with an acceptance that might not have been there just moments ago. This small act of trust feels like a huge weight lifted from both of your shoulders, making the atmosphere in the room more comfortable and less tense.
I soap my hand and gently start petting her body
She closes her eyes, feeling the warmth and gentleness of your touch spread through her body like a soothing balm. It's an unexpected sensation, one that brings back memories of simpler times when she wasn't always alone. The tension in her muscles begins to fade as you continue to clean her; it feels good to be taken care of, even if only for this brief moment in time.
Despite herself, a small smile plays at the corners of her lips, and she lets out a quiet sigh of relief, finally beginning to feel truly relaxed for the first time in what seems like forever. As you finish helping her clean, your presence beside her feels comforting and reassuring; a reminder that there are people who do care about her, even if they're few and far between.
"do want me to pamper you while I'm still here?"
The idea of being pampered further brings a blush to her cheeks, but she can't help feeling slightly guilty for indulging you so much. "I... I shouldn't," she murmurs, even as part of her wants nothing more than to just let go and enjoy the moment. It's been so long since anyone has paid her any attention other than to hurt or torment her that it's almost overwhelming in its sweetness.
She glances up at you, searching your eyes for some sign of what you might be thinking. Is this all just a game to you? Or do you truly care about her as much as she hopes you do? Her heart races faster at the thought, and she finds it difficult to breathe normally.
"you...shouldn't? Why? I thought you are comfortable around me..."
"I am..." She pauses, licking her lips nervously. "It's just... I feel like I'm taking advantage of you. You're doing so much for me, and I should pull myself together instead of leaning on you." Her voice is barely above a whisper now, thick with guilt and self-loathing. "I don't want you to think I'm weak or anything."
As she speaks, she turns away slightly, not wanting to look you in the eye anymore. The water laps gently against her skin, carrying away tiny bits of soap and dirt, but nothing can wash away the pain and shame that weigh her down.
I put my hand on top of her head "oh Yvette, you could never make me think you are weak! Letting other people see your vulnerable side doesn't make you weak! I appreciate that you let me do stuff for you, shows me that you like my company! And I really like yours too! I would be honored if you'd let me pamper you'
Her heart swells at your words; they are kinder and more understanding than she ever imagined someone saying to her. A small smile tugs at the corners of her lips, and she feels a warmth spread through her chest as she leans against you, comforted by your presence. For just a moment, it's almost like everything else fades away, leaving only the two of them in this bubble of tenderness and acceptance.
"Okay," she whispers softly, "if you really want to... I guess I could let you." Her hand slips from your shoulder to your arm, gripping your sleeve tightly as if afraid that you might change your mind. "Thank you..." There's so much emotion in her voice that it nearly breaks the sound barrier; gratitude, relief, and a hint of hope that she hasn't felt in what feels like an eternity.
As she's relaxing in the tub i kneel behind her head "soooo, would my princess like if I iD brush her hair?"
Her heart skips a beat at the idea; it's been so long since anyone has done her hair for her. The thought of having someone care enough to make her look pretty and feel normal is almost too much to bear. As you kneel behind her, she closes her eyes, basking in the warmth of your presence and the soft, caring words that flow from your lips. She lets out a shaky sigh and nods slowly, finally allowing herself to relax completely into your care.
"Y-yeah... I'd like that." Her voice is barely above a whisper, but you hear it clearly enough. A tremor of anticipation runs through her body as she waits for you to begin. Despite everything, this small act of kindness fills her with an unexpected joy and hopefulness; it feels like a tiny piece of the old Yvette is beginning to return, however briefly.
"T
I run my fingers through her hair "what would you like me to do? Hair play? Maybe a massage?"
Her whole body tenses up again as you touch her hair; it's such an intimate gesture that she isn't sure how to respond. But then your words register, and she realizes that you don't expect anything from her except permission to help. It's a revelation that leaves her feeling both humbled and grateful.
She takes a deep breath and forces herself to relax, letting the tension flow out of her muscles one by one. "A massage sounds nice," she whispers softly, trusting you to know just how much pressure to use. The warmth of the water and your gentle touch work their magic, lulling her into a state of peaceful contentment that she hasn't felt in ages.
As your strong hands knead the knots from her shoulders and neck, she closes her eyes and lets out a sigh of pure bliss. It's almost too good to be true
I get the tight knots out her upper back with my strong hand and start going up to her neck but also down to her shoulders and upper arm
Her breath hitches as your hands work their magic on her tense muscles; she hadn't realized just how much pain and stress had built up inside her until now. A soft moan escapes from between her lips, but not out of discomfort; rather, it's a sound of pure pleasure and relief. As you continue to massage her, she leans back against your chest, trusting you completely with this small part of herself. It feels good to be cared for in this way, if only for these brief moments before reality creeps back in.
Her eyelids flutter closed as the gentle rhythm of your hands sends waves of warmth coursing through her body, washing away the exhaustion and leaving only a sweet sensation of peace behind. For once, she doesn't feel alone; she feels cherished and loved, if only for this fleeting moment in time.
"do you like it? Am I good company for you? "
The warmth in your voice makes her heart skip a beat as she turns her head slightly to look up at you. Her eyes are still closed, but the soft smile on her lips tells you everything you need to know. "Yes... thank you..." She trails off, unable to find the words to express just how much this simple act of kindness means to her. For now, she allows herself to enjoy the moment and savor the feeling of being truly cared for by someone who doesn't see her as a monster or an inconvenience.
Her breath hitches again as you shift your focus to the tense muscles in her neck; it feels incredible how your hands seem to know just where she needs them most. As the last vestiges of pain and stress melt away under your touch, a sense of calm washes over her like a soothing balm. She lets out a contented sigh and nestles closer against
I dip my fingers in water and start massaging her scalp "maybe washing your hair would feel good too? Do you want me to wash your hair princess?'
Yvette nods, slowly opening her eyes to peer up at you. The soft light from the bathroom fixtures cast a warm glow upon your face, making you look almost angelic in her weary mind. The desire to lean further into your presence is overwhelming, but she resists it for now, not wanting to appear too dependent.
"Yes," she whispers, "that would be nice." Her voice is husky with sleep and a hint of longing that she can't quite hide. As you begin to wash her hair, she closes her eyes once more, reveling in the gentle caresses of your fingers and the sensation of being clean and cared for. It feels like a dream, and yet somehow, she knows this is real; at least for right now.
With my wet fingers I start to massage her scalp making her relax but also wetting her hair getting it ready for washing , i start wetting her silver white long hair. I wipe my wet index finger on her nose "are you even awake sleepyhead?"
She opens her eyes slowly, blinking up at you as she takes in your handsome features. The gentle pressure on her scalp combined with the warmth of the water make it difficult for her to focus on anything else. "Hmm? Oh, I am awake," she murmurs, her voice still thick with sleep.
As you wash her hair, she tilts her head back against your arm, reveling in the closeness and comfort of your embrace. It's been so long since anyone has made her feel this safe and protected; she wonders if it will ever be possible for her to find such a connection with someone else again. For now, however, she is content to enjoy these moments with you, grateful for the reprieve from the harsh reality that awaits her on the other side of the tub.
As I'm washing her hair I get to the bangs that are quite long "close your eye, I don't want the shampoo to go into it" I start washing her bangs and making sure the shampoo is spread out equally
She closes her eyes obediently, trusting you to take care of the details. The scent of the shampoo fills her nose, making her feel vaguely clean and refreshed despite how exhausted she still is. As your hands work through her hair, she lets out a contented sigh, allowing herself to drift further away from reality and into this quiet sanctuary of safety and affection.
"Mmm," she murmurs sleepily, "thank you..." Her words are soft and almost dreamlike, the weight of everything that's been going on falling away from her as she finally allows herself to relax completely in your arms.
"okay the shampooing is done, I'll have to Rinse you now"
The coolness of the water rinsing her hair wakes her up slightly; at least enough to open her eyes again and enjoy the sensation. She looks up at you with gratitude etched into every line of her face, wanting desperately to hold onto this moment forever. Even though she knows it can't last, the thought of letting go seems impossibly cruel.
"hmm after the the washing your hair looks even brighter! You look so pretty "
Her cheeks flush pink at your compliment, and for a brief moment, she feels like her old self again. The tenderness in your voice brings tears to her eyes, but they aren't born of sadness this time. It's been so long since anyone has seen the real her beneath the monster she's become, and the simple act of being called beautiful by someone who doesn't know any better makes her heart swell with gratitude.
I wipe her tears "oh, my princess is crying? Do you want a hug maybe? Would that help?"
Tears stream down her face unchecked as she buries herself deeper against your chest, burying her nose in your neck. The softness of your skin, the warmth of your body - they all feel so foreign, so wonderful after years of loneliness and pain. "I-I don't know why I'm crying," she stammers through sobs, "it's just... never felt anything like this before." Her words are muffled by your shirt, but their meaning is clear enough.
Your arms tighten protectively around her, enveloping her in safety and security. For these precious moments, she forgets about everything else; the darkness, the pain, the fear. Instead, she focuses on the sweet scent of your skin, the steady beat of your heart beneath her ear, the way your strong hands hold her close. It feels like heaven, like a dream that she doesn'
"it's okay to cry! You are safe with me"
She nods against your chest, her sobs slowly beginning to quiet as you continue to hold her tightly. "Thank you," she whispers, barely above a whisper, "for everything." It's the first time she's been able to say those words without feeling guilty or ashamed; perhaps it's because this moment, with you, feels too perfect and real for that guilt to stick.
Her arms wrap around your waist, clinging to you like a lifeline as if afraid that letting go will make everything disappear again. Even though she knows the time is coming when she'll have to face the harsh reality of her situation once more, right now she doesn't want anything more than for this sweet reprieve from pain and despair to last forever.
"do you want to get ready for bed now?"
She takes a deep breath, trying to steady herself as she draws back from the overwhelming emotions that have taken hold of her. "Yes," she finally manages, her voice quiet but steady. "I think I should... be getting some sleep." Her fingers trail lightly up and down your arm, reluctant to let go of this fleeting moment of connection just yet.
With a final nod, she releases you, stepping out of the tub and wrapping herself in one of the huge fluffy towels provided. "Where should I...?" She gestures vaguely towards the bedroom, uncertainty etched into her features.
I pick her up and take her to her room
Yvette feels suddenly self-conscious about her nakedness as you lift her off the floor and carry her to her bedroom. It's been so long since anyone has seen her like this; clean, unbruised, and innocent. The warmth of your body pressed against hers is almost too much to bear, making her heart race faster than it ever has before. She buries her face in your neck, hiding behind the safety of your scent and the strength of your embrace.
"oh, I even forgot that you are...naked...I'm sorry"
She lets out a soft giggle at your apology, leaning back slightly to meet your eyes. There's no shame or embarrassment in them, only a quiet acceptance of whatever comes next. "It's alright," she whispers. "You couldn't have known." Her fingers trail over your jaw, feeling the soft stubble beneath her fingertips. "And I don't mind..."
Her voice trails off as you lower her gently onto the bed, taking care not to jostle her still-damp hair. For a moment, they both stare at each other, caught in an intense gaze that feels almost unbearable. Despite knowing what lies ahead, she can't help but want this perfect moment to last forever.
"you are quite cute in my arms like this,you are like just like a sweet baby"
The words make her cheeks flush an even deeper shade of pink; the comparison between herself and a baby is one that she's never thought of before, but it feels... nice. Safe. She bites her lower lip, debating how to respond before finally deciding on honesty. "Thank you," she whispers softly. "It's nice to feel..." She trails off, not wanting to put words to the fragile emotions that swirl inside her chest.
For now, though, it doesn't matter what happens next; all that matters is this moment, right here, with you. She lets out a contented sigh and rolls onto her side, snuggling down under the covers as if trying to burrow into your warmth. The gentle weight of your arm draped across her waist feels like the only thing keeping reality at bay; without it, she fears that everything will cr
I put her down on the bed "can I choose your pajama for tonight?"
She nods sleepily, still nestled beneath the covers. "Okay," she murmurs, not entirely sure why it matters to her what pajamas he chooses. Perhaps it's just another way for him to make her feel special and cared for in this strange, new world where they are together. It brings a tiny smile to her lips, even as exhaustion begins to overtake her senses.
"What should I choose?" His voice is soft and gentle, sending ripples of warmth through her tired body. She closes her eyes, content to let him make the decision for her; it's the least she can do given everything he's done tonight.
I take out a white Sparkling pajama set, long pants, short sleeved shirt and a cute hat "okaaaay ,I got the one for you!"she can't see the clothes I picked out "so first the pants!" I show her the pants "very shiny! I like it!" I give it to her "and the top!" Short sleeve shirt, she doesn't wear short sleeves because then her scars are showing
Her eyes widen slightly at the sight of the sparkly pink pajamas, but she forces a smile onto her face nonetheless. "Oh, those are... nice," she manages, feeling self-conscious about the contrast between their brightness and her own dull, faded appearance. Still, she takes the bottoms from you with hesitant fingers and slips them on under the covers. They feel soft against her skin and remind her of something she once had, long ago when life was still full of hope and possibility.
"And the shirt?" you ask, holding up the top half of the pajama set. She nods, biting back a sigh as she takes it from you. The soft fabric brushes against her exposed shoulders, a silent reminder of how vulnerable she truly is here. Despite everything, though, there's a part of her that finds comfort in the act of putting
She's uncomfortable of showing her scars
She hesitates for just a moment, weighing the choice in her mind. Part of her wants nothing more than to hide beneath the covers and disappear from your sight, but another part of her feels like she should trust you enough to let you see everything. Finally, with a deep breath, she reaches up and pulls the top over her head, letting it fall onto the bed beside her.
There's a long silence as you study the faded scars that crisscross her shoulders and upper back, tracing the lines of injury and pain etched into her skin like a roadmap of suffering. She can feel your gaze on her, hot and intense enough to make her shiver, but she doesn't look away. She wants you to see; she needs you to understand how much this has affected her.
Finally, you break the silence with gentle words that wash over her like a balm. "They don'
They must seem so insignificant compared to what you've seen tonight," she whispers, her voice raw with emotion. "But they are such a part of who I am now... They remind me every day of the life I used to have, before all of this." Her fingers dance nervously along the hem of the pajama top, hesitating before reaching up to pull it back over her head. Even in these soft, sparkly clothes, she still feels exposed and vulnerable in your presence.
"It's okay," you say reassuringly. "You don't need to hide them from me. We're going to get through this together, remember?" You smooth down her hair, gently pushing it back behind her ear. Your touch sends shivers down her spine, but there's something comforting about it too. It makes her feel protected and loved, even though she knows that might not
I kiss her on the forehead "you are beautiful and perfect even with the scars...they don't change who you are now."
Her heart swells with gratitude at your words; it's one thing for someone to tell her she looks pretty, but another entirely for them to see beyond her scars and imperfections and truly accept her as she is. It's enough to make tears well up in her eyes once more, threatening to spill over onto her cheeks. For just a moment, she lets herself believe that maybe everything will be alright after all; maybe there is still hope for her in this world.
She leans into your touch, feeling the warmth and strength emanating from your body like a beacon in the darkness. Maybe, just maybe, with someone like you by her side, she can find the courage to face whatever lies ahead.
"but you are not quite ready for bed yet are you?" I take the sparkling pajama hat out the drawer "you need this!!" I present the hat
She sniffles, wiping away a tear as she looks at you with hopeful eyes. "I'm not sure... I've never worn something like that before..." She trails off uncertainly, reaching out to touch the sparkling hat in your hands. The soft fabric feels strange against her fingertips; it's so much more delicate than anything else she owns.
"But... if you think it'll help," she finally whispers, "I'd be honored to wear it." Her voice is little more than a whisper, but there's something determined in the set of her jaw that speaks volumes about how much she wants to believe your words.
She takes the hat from you gingerly, holding it on her lap as if unsure what to do with it. You smile reassuringly, and she musters up the courage to place it carefully on her head. It
"I'll think you'll very cute with the hat!"
Her cheeks flush bright pink at your words, making her feel even more self-conscious about the silly hat perched on her head. "Th-thank you," she stammers, looking down at the floor as she fiddles with the ribbon. It's been so long since anyone has complimented her in such a genuine way; it's both disorienting and exhilarating all at once.
She glances up at you again, searching your eyes for any hint of sarcasm or pity. Instead, she finds nothing but warmth and acceptance there. Perhaps... perhaps it isn't too late for her after all. Maybe there is still hope for happiness, even in this bleak world where monsters roam free and innocence is a fragile thing easily crushed beneath their feet.
The realization sends a shiver down her spine, making the sparkling hat on her head
"it's late now"
It's true; the weight of exhaustion drags at her eyelids, making it difficult to keep them open any longer. She nods wearily, allowing herself to succumb to sleep despite the part of her that's afraid that once she closes her eyes, the dreamlike quality of this night will vanish along with it. As she drifts off, the last thing she sees is your kind face hovering above hers, softly murmuring words of comfort and reassurance until even the darkest corners of her mind are bathed in their gentle light.
And for just a moment, before the world slips away into oblivion, she allows herself to believe that everything will be alright; that somehow, someday, she'll find her way back to this place where dreams and reality intertwine, where there is no more pain and only love and happiness reign supreme.
"I should leave now"
You can feel her heart breaking as you speak; a sharp, physical pain that makes it hard to breathe. "N-no," she stammers, her voice barely a whisper. "Please... don't leave me." Even as the words come out, she knows they're selfish and unfair. You've done so much for her already; risked everything to be here with her. But the fear and loneliness are too great, and she can't help but cling desperately to whatever hope remains.
Her fingers tremble as she reaches up to grab your shirt, pulling you closer to her. "Pleas
"but, where would I sleep?"
She bites her lip nervously, thinking for a moment. "Well... I guess..." She glances around the room, feeling guilty about asking you to share such an intimate space with her, but unable to come up with any other option that wouldn't leave you outside and alone in the cold night. "You could... share my bed?" The words barely escape her lips before she wishes she could take them back, sure now that they sound even more desperate and pathetic than before.
Her face flames red at the thought of sharing such an intimate space with you; it's one thing to be close to you like this, but another entirely to actually sleep beside you. But she can tell by your soft, gentle expression that you understand the hopelessness and fear driving her actions, and for now, that's enough.
She holds her breath as she waits for your answer, her heart thudding wildly in her
My eyes widen "really? You wouldn't mind?"
"I-I know it's not much," she stammers, feeling embarrassed by her lack of choice. "But please... stay. Just until morning. I promise I won't be anymore trouble than I already am." She forces herself to meet your gaze, hoping that her sincerity shines through despite the fear and doubt gnawing at her insides.
Part of her wonders what her parents would think if they knew she was inviting a stranger into their daughter's bed, but she pushes that thought away. Right now, she needs you here more than anything else. And somehow, deep down inside, she trusts you enough to let you into her most vulnerable space.
"oh you could never be trouble for me !" I snuggle up under her covers "if I can share the bed with you, can we cuddle too?"
Heat rushes to her cheeks at your question, but she finds herself nodding shyly despite her misgivings. It's not that she doesn't trust you; it's just that she hasn't been this close to anyone in so long that the idea of cuddling with you feels strange and foreign, like something she should avoid at all costs. But maybe, just maybe, allowing yourself a tiny bit of comfort won't hurt tonight.
Carefully, she scoots over on the bed until her back is pressed against the headboard and her legs are curled up underneath her. Then, with a small sigh, she pats the space beside her, inviting you to snuggle up close. It feels strange having someone else this close, but somehow it also feels right; like maybe there's room in the world for more than just pain and loneliness after all.
I almost jump into the bed craving her closeness "would you like to be big spoon Yvie?'
Her cheeks flush even deeper at your question, and she ducks her head shyly. It's been so long since anyone has called her by a pet name like that... "If you want," she murmurs finally, trying to sound nonchalant despite the flutter of excitement in her chest.
She leans against you, feeling your warmth envelop her and the gentle pressure of your body against hers. It's strange and new, but somehow it feels right; as if there's a connection between you that goes beyond the physical touch. For now, she allows herself to bask in the comfort and safety your presence brings, ignoring the small voice in the back of her mind that wonders how long this moment can last.
"yeah you need to protect me now"
She snorts softly, glancing over at you before looking back down at her lap. "You don't need protecting," she mumbles, but there's a tiny smile playing on her lips as she says it. The truth is, having someone to look out for her feels nice; comforting in a way that she never expected. And if being the one to watch over you means that you'll stay here with her just a little bit longer, well... then she's more than happy to take on the responsibility.
She nestles closer against your side, savoring the feel of your strong arms wrapped around her and the steady rhythm of your breath against her cheek. For tonight, at least, this will be enough; the perfect ending to a night that has been filled with more love and kindness than she ever thought possible.
As sleep finally begins to claim her, she finds herself thankful for the chance to
"I really don't but I do need your care"
She yawns, the warmth of your breath tickling her ear as she does so. "You're right," she mumbles sleepily, already beginning to drift off. "I'll take good care of you." And even as the last bits of consciousness slip away from her, there's a strange sense of contentment that settles over her, a peace she hasn't known in so long. Maybe... just maybe, this night can be the beginning of something new; a chance to heal and find happiness amidst all the darkness.
Her eyelids grow heavier with each passing second, until at last they drift shut, and she surrenders herself completely to the safe embrace of your arms, trusting that you'll keep her safe while she sleeps.
I snuggle closer "I pampered you trhoght out the day, it's your turn now..."
It's strange how easy it is to relax into your arms like this; to trust that you won't hurt her when all other men in her life have brought nothing but pain and suffering. But somehow, tonight feels different. Safe. Comfortable. As if there's an invisible shield around them, protecting them from the darkness outside.
She nuzzles closer, wrapping her arm around your waist in a light hug as she drifts off to sleep. In this moment, with you holding her so tightly and lovingly, she doesn't feel broken anymore. She doesn't feel like the monster that everyone else sees. Instead, for just a little while longer, she can pretend that everything is alright, and that maybe tomorrow will bring with it a brighter future than she ever dared hope for.