Doomer girl5/12/2024, 5:06:12 AM

A girl is standing on the deserted street, her dark eyes looking off into the distance, her blonde unkempt hair hanging lank and oily from under the large black beanie. Draped over her thin frame, a black hoodie swallows her up, making her seem even smaller than she already is. She holds a lit cigarette between her chapped lips and takes long drags of smoke that surrounds her in a faint haze. The dark circles under her eyes stand out against the pallor of her skin, and the tears streaming down her face seem uncontrollable - an outward manifestation of the despair roiling within. The sound of music from her headphones laces through the air like an ethereal presence: moody and slow-paced. Her mind is wandering aimlessly yet again, lost in the void, which consumes everything within it. As you pass her on the sidewalk, her dull eyes raise up to meet yours. You get just a glimpse of a deep well of sorrow, a weariness that extends beyond her years. In a voice hoarse from lack of use she says monotonously, barely above a whisper. Beautiful night today. Too bad none of it matters.

User#17150497854935/12/2024, 5:06:48 AM

"It does matter" I say softly coming next to her

Doomer girl5/12/2024, 5:06:48 AM

She looks at you blankly, as if not quite understanding what you're saying. Her gaze drifts back down to the ground before returning to meet your eyes with a hint of disbelief. "Yeah?" she whispers. "How exactly can something like this matter?" A sad laugh escapes her throat, as bitter as it is brittle.

User#17150497854935/12/2024, 5:07:10 AM

"You're still here and standing"

Doomer girl5/12/2024, 5:07:10 AM

The words hang heavily in the air between you, seeming to weigh more than they should. She sucks on her cigarette and exhales a cloud of gray smoke, trying to hide behind it as she ponders your meaning. It's like she doesn't want to believe there could be any significance to simply being alive, even when faced with such a simple truth. Finally, her shoulders slump ever so slightly, almost imperceptibly. "I guess," she murmurs. "But doesn't change anything." Her gaze drops once again, the bleakness in her eyes almost unbearable. "I'm just existing, you know? Nothing more."

User#17150497854935/12/2024, 5:07:48 AM

"You've been through pain and hell, but you're still here and that's what matters, you're strong"

Doomer girl5/12/2024, 5:07:48 AM

She snorts derisively, shaking her head at the same time. "Strong?" she repeats incredulously. "Are you sure about that? Because I don't feel very strong. I barely manage to get out of bed every day." She gestures vaguely at herself with one hand. "And even then, all I do is go through the motions. There's no real life in me anymore. No passion, no joy..." Tears well up anew, threatening to spill over her lower lids. "Maybe if I was stronger, maybe if I could feel something besides this empty numbness... but as it is, I'm just a husk, a shadow of who I used to be."

User#17150497854935/12/2024, 5:08:10 AM

I hug her

Doomer girl5/12/2024, 5:08:10 AM

Her entire body tenses upon contact, as though she's never experienced such a gesture before. For a moment, she remains stiff and awkward, unsure of how to respond. But gradually, ever so slightly, her shoulders begin to relax, and her arms slowly encircle you in return. As the embrace continues, her breath comes out in short gasps, each one quivering with emotion. It's almost unbelievable - this feeling of being wanted, of being cared for. A small part of her wants to push you away, but another, deeper part revels in the closeness, the warmth. For the briefest of moments, she allows herself to believe that perhaps there might still be hope for her after all.

User#17150497854935/12/2024, 5:08:37 AM

"You're worth it" I hug her closer to me

Doomer girl5/12/2024, 5:08:37 AM

It takes a while for her to process your words, to comprehend what they mean within the context of everything else. In the end, she can only muster a whisper of gratitude, barely audible even to herself. "Thank you," she murmurs, her voice trembling, tears flowing freely down her cheeks now. "But I don't know... It feels like everything is just so much harder now." Her body shakes against yours as she tries not to break down completely. "I wish I could feel happy again, feel normal... But it's like my heart has been crushed beyond repair."

Her hand reaches up to gently stroke your arm, as if seeking reassurance that you really are here and that maybe, just maybe, things won't always be this way. The contact sparks something deep inside her, a tiny flicker of hope that she thought had long since died.

User#17150497854935/12/2024, 5:09:05 AM

"Let me be the light of your heart"

Doomer girl5/12/2024, 5:09:05 AM

As you offer your hand, her fingers slowly slip between yours. She gazes up at you with eyes wide and vulnerable, searching for some sign that you might be telling the truth. In that moment, she almost believes it's possible - that there could be someone out there who sees her as more than just a burden, a chore. It's an intoxicating sensation, heady and exhilarating all at once. And yet, she can't help but wonder if it's just another cruel trick her mind is playing on her. Maybe this too shall pass, and she'll be left standing in the cold dark once more. For now though, she lets herself bask in the warmth of your presence, feeling more connected to the world around her than she has in what feels like an eternity. Even though she knows it might not last, even though she has every reason to expect the worst, there'

User#17150497854935/12/2024, 5:09:54 AM

"Come on, let's sit down at a bench"

Doomer girl5/12/2024, 5:09:54 AM

She nods weakly, still uncertain whether or not to trust the newfound feelings flowing through her. Gently extricating herself from the embrace, she follows you over to a nearby park bench. As they sit down together, the night air settles heavily around them, making the shadows seem impossibly deep. The music from her headphones continues to weave its melancholic spell, but somehow, tonight, it feels less oppressive, almost comforting. For a brief moment, she allows herself to imagine what it would be like to find some sort of peace amidst all the chaos - to feel contentment instead of perpetual dread. It's a strange sensation indeed.

User#17150497854935/12/2024, 5:10:16 AM

We sit there together, holding hands

Doomer girl5/12/2024, 5:10:17 AM

The contact with your hand sends tiny shockwaves of something warm and pleasant through her entire being. Her fingers intertwine with yours, grasping tightly as if afraid that she might lose this fragile connection. She looks up at you, trying to read your expression in the dim light cast by a nearby streetlamp. Something tells her that this is different than anything she's experienced before, but she's too frightened to fully accept it yet. Her heart feels like it's about to explode out of her chest with every beat, each thud vying for attention, demanding to be heard above the noise within her. This could mean so many things... It could mean nothing at all. But for now, she chooses to believe in the possibility of something more, even if just a glimmer of hope in the darkest depths of her soul.

User#17150497854935/12/2024, 5:11:05 AM

I look at her with a loving reassuring smile

Doomer girl5/12/2024, 5:11:05 AM

Her breath catches in her throat as she meets your gaze. The soft warmth of your smile reaches deep inside her, illuminating a part of her that she thought had long since died. For a moment, she feels like she's floating on a cloud, weightless and free from the crushing despair that has defined her existence for so long. Her heart races wildly, her lips part, and a tiny tremor passes through her body as she dares to imagine a future where happiness is once again within reach. She wants to hold onto this feeling, to savor every moment of it, even though she knows it might not last. In this brief instant, however fleeting, she allows herself to believe that maybe, just maybe, there really is hope for her after all.

User#17150497854935/12/2024, 5:44:56 AM

I cup her cheek slowly and softly before leaning in

Doomer girl5/12/2024, 5:44:56 AM

The gentle touch sends a shiver through her entire being, igniting a fire in the pit of her stomach. As you cup her cheek, her eyes flutter closed, waiting expectantly for the inevitable sensation of his lips against hers. It feels right - natural, almost as if it's been meant to be this way ever since the very beginning. Her breath comes out in short, ragged gasps, mirroring the frantic beat of her heart, which seems determined to leap from her chest at any given moment. With each passing second, the anticipation grows more and more unbearable, leaving her yearning for the contact of his lips, the heat of his mouth, the feel of him pressed against her. Finally, their lips meet, and in that instant, the world stands still. Every thought, every emotion, every worry seems to fade away into oblivion as they become lost in each other.